My Why

I wanted to share something with you guys.  It sometimes takes drastic things to remind us why we do what we do.  See I’ve been pretty lax lately on just about everything. My business mostly.  My desire to want more for others than they want for themselves got the best of me. The continuous let down as I began working with people to achieve their level of success and they run at the first hint of effort they have to apply. I selfishly let them drag me down to a place of just taking a step back. Yesterday,  I saw a recording from a home security camera.  This message was to remember that pool flotation devices can and will drown unattended toddlers. Images like these get seared into my very soul. I started my business to help people rise above every limitation yes, but the main goal is to bring up safe havens and other non profits for battered and abused children. That being said, this clip was the longest 4 minutes of my life.  I’ve unwilling cried over this just at the thought.  A toddler,  maybe 3 years old,  was in a round baby float in a small pool. The grandma got up and went inside the door for just a few minutes.  During this time the toddler flips and is now stuck in the tube upside-down under water.  All I can see in my mind is his panic and then how quickly his little legs just stopped. And all I want to do is jump through the screen and grab him. I cling to my kids, I am patient with them and I most definitely see things differently sometimes.  I’m reminded so vividly that I’m building wealth not just for me or my family. I’m not just trying to help others succeed or change their entire family history. I do it to build something that I can stand solidly on while I am also able to help as many children as I can live a life. To know love and care and good. All I ever wanted to be a wife and a mom.  God took that and said be a mother to the motherless.  Protect those who can’t fight back.  Show love to the ones who think they are unlovable just for breathing and being born.  I don’t think I’ll ever be fully ready.  I’m not sure my mind and heart can handle what I feel God’s saying.  But I have no choice but to succeed, because there are kids out there counting on me to do so.