When Sleep Eludes You

God is an awesome God, He reigns over Heaven and earth with wisdom, power, and love. Our God is am awesome God!!

I lay here tired but can’t sleep.  This my nightly fight. Waiting for sleep to befriend me.  As I lay in the dark, my eyes sting with exhaustion, I pray with an overwhelmed heart, brimming with humbled thanks to Jesus. I am so thankful for my life, my children, my man, and for the many many blessings of God. Every night I feel just how small I am on this earth yet just how much God’s love abounds in my life.  I daily fight my flesh.  The last few weeks I’ve been fighting off infection and have been quite sluggish and lazy.  It was yesterday that I realized that this was a sneaky attack of the enemy slowing the progress of my business and shadowing my leadership. Yet every night, I lay awake in my mind as my physical body is beyond tired thinking about the wondrous and glorious blessings and gifts God has given me. The thing I learned the most from Shane’s death was that time is the most valued commodity we have.  God is so good that He allows me to breath, for my heart to beat, and gives me sound mind.  My children are safe, alive, and well. My Husband to be its absolutely amazing. God has blessed me with things I sought after and more.  I recognize that I am with His favor to even live in this Era or even with this freedom to own a business that is centered around Him. Helping as many ppl as I can save and make money from home. God is in every fiber of my life the good and bad. Yet, nothing is truly bad for a child of God. God took what was tragic and flipped it into something even greater than I ever thought possible. When I think back over my lifetime I can clearly see Him guiding and leading the steps of life even in the valley’s.  


I am NOT Perfect

I get super frustrated with many things. I am going to keep it real with you guys. An unorganized house is one of them. I mean rip my hair out, bite someone’s heads off, screaming meltdown inside of me happens. That is what happens inside of me when I see junk mail on the counters (aka trash) or dishes in the sink. I literally rage inside when others just walk by messes or half finish projects.  I keep my cool and just get to work. I cannot rest even if I am laying down if I know that I haven’t completed a task even if my body and mind are so tired I choose to finish it the next day, I have a restless sleepless night. I was raised on the grounds see something needed to get done …. just do it. I am working on ingraining this into my children as I raise them. It has been the most beneficial in every aspect of my life. Most of all in business. My youngest is 2, and he is much like me in many ways. He needs to be matching all the time. He gets super frustrated when things aren’t up to standard for him. He compartmentalizes things….. everything has a place. Sometimes, things aren’t right unless I do them. he is the same way about a few things now. I do love his way of things though. He will do very well in business, law, or medicine if he chooses. My oldest is 10 and she is the exact opposite. She is learning quickly through chores that she cannot just be a hot mess. I do love her extremely girly ways and how she is open and will speak her mind. Now, take our very tough personalities and  quickly merge them with semi opposite personalities. Pray with me for balance and peace.  Don’t get things twisted. I love my life. I love my guy and our 5 kids (I have 2 he has 3). I love my business and helping others, but until the move is complete and everything is in it’s place I will still battle my inner flip outs.

Cry Babies in America (USA)

I miss you guys!!!! I have been having many mini messages throughout the day …. then I think, wow this would make an awesome blog. Then I run out of time in my day or I get distracted. I think that many people are like the Israelites that where still mentally trapped in their mind as a state of slavery. People as a whole are bound by ignoragnce, class status, lables from society. Even when they have been set to another path, at least it seems that way. Have you heard about the “radicals” protesting and mobbing the streets of America? Such cry babies!!! There has never been an outburst so vexing to a population during an elecoral win that I know in of in the USA. Like a child punished by a parent, there is nothing that we can do about it the fact that it happened. I would like to point out scripturally that God is not just in control of ALL THINGS, but I had a serious concern for Clinton coming into office. She stood behind the next world war. I don’t believe many know that….. or choose to believe it. Genesis 12:3, 49:9 and Numbers 24:9 all speak of those who curse Israel God will curse. We were lead as a nation by Obama to be the recipient of that when he broke the treaty with Israel stating to Iran that we would not come to their aid if Iran waged war to Israel. Secretly backed by none other than Clinton. God mercifully saved us and allotted us more time to get right with Him by putting Trump into office. I personally rather have a business tycoon that is finding Jesus more in his life and following Him than anyone else. Revelation 13 pictates in detail the dragon of the sea with feet like a bear and mouth of a lion. When Russia decided (unofficially) to come to the aid of Syria and then join forces with China…… guys we were headed to it quick.  As a nation we deserved that actually. God is good AT ALL TIMES. These people out there blocking the streets and looting and committing violence to others. Or finally letting their true colors out and threatening those of other races. Well….. using the election to show your evil is a sad twisted way of proving exactly why Trump was elected. To think that Trump will stand behind you because of your outburst or warped mindset I say this…… NEVER IN A MILLION YEARS. HAHAHAHA you honestly think an INTERNATIONAL BILLIONAIRE believes these white supremacy crap is what he is about?!?!?!? OUT OF YOUR EVER LIVING MIND! No way… he would have never gotten where he is in life if he was. You think he is going to lead that way??? Trump is a secret christian. At least a growing one. Rough edges and a tough past…. we as a whole, we need exactly that!! Like an unrulely child that has strict parents. It’s necessary to keep them on a straight path. We as a nation are the prodigal son. We’ve left a good place…. got cocky and egotistical…. prideful and frankly soft. We whine when we don’t agree and throw tantrums when we don’t get our way. Frankly it is stomach wrenching to even watch or hear about. I skip over the terrible crap on my news feeds and don’t ever watch the news now. The world is watching us act this way, and quite directly as a nation we are showing our @**.  GROW UP!!! When 70% of the protesters AREN’T EVEN REGISTERED TO VOTE?!?!?! ARE YOU KIDDING ME??? Shut up and sit down weak links!!! To make a real difference actually take the steps needed to make the difference you seek. I suggest going into your house and not leaving for days and study hard the Word of God AKA the BIBLE!!! Only then will there be more understanding of not only how our government opperates but I know you’ll understand the God has given us the gift of time….. to come back to Him.

Verse of the Day 

​Nehemiah 1:11

11 Lord, let your ear be attentive to the prayer of this your servant and to the prayer of your servants who delight in revering your name. Give your servant success today by granting him favor in the presence of this man.” I was cupbearer to the king

Jesus Has Given “us” Authority to Drive Out Demons & Evil Spirits — The Devotion Cafe’


What are you waiting for?

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Pray, Always — Faith Unlocked

Pray through all seasons Pray in all circumstances Continually Pray through suffering Intercede for those in pain With joy, fill the gaps “Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus” – 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

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Holy Spirit You are Welcome Here

Ok, guys, I know that I have been touch and go on here. I must admit this journey God has me on is awesomely wild. This past weekend was the international convention for my business and company. If you have never been affiliated with a Jesus founded and Bible based company then you haven’t ever lived. Myself and my team were recognized on stage in front of 30 thousand people. All Honor and glory be to God. There is no way I would have been able to do that or lead my partners to do that if I wasn’t following the Holy Spirit. It’s funny how things work out. God has shown me so much transpiring in the back ground. I’ve been given the stories and testimonies and struggles of leaders that are some of the most influential in network marketing and of the world. I saw others for who they really are at points. God revealed to me somethings that aren’t as wonderful. God is of the details. He plans for His beloved to be set up for life in abundance. Subsequently, that means the blessings overflow unto those around them. Couple scriptures come to mind; Psalms  105:15 and 1 Chronicles 16:22 both speak of not doing harm to the anointed and chosen of God. While Luke 4:24, Mark 6:4, and Matthew 13:57 all inform us that a prophet is not accepted in his/her home town. I realized this in a great magnitude when others whom I never thought in a million years to betray or slander me did so behind my back and then smile and plead innocents to me while being promoted through my business because of me. How often do we remember that God is one of details. I thank God for those people. I need them in my life. Without them my life wouldn’t reflect the Word of God. John 15:18-27 is a key factor. At one point even Jesus mother Mary called Him “unstable” and “unbalanced” to the crowd He was preaching to. Matthew 7:16 shows you that you must look at the fruit that a person bears to know their heart. All that has happened in my life and my business has been a strategic plan by God. As I have grown into my walk and strength in my faith I see this more so now than ever before. By His will I was able to attend an exclusive pool party hosted by the leaders of my business. It was here that you realized that these people are the ones who are highly favored by God. So much so that our ENTIRE organization were brought together by God because of how strong and devout our faith in Him is. Because He knows that we would never deny Him and bring others to Him as well as show them how to gain life in abundance with Him. Father God is so AMAZING. and Jesus continuously leaves me in AWE of Him. As the day proceeded and we had tons of fun and networked with the best of the best in the industry, in the company, and as people of faith, God had another plan in mind. There was an impromptu worship. A beautiful pianist sat at the piano and started to play. As she played 2 girls began to sing, though beautiful voices they were hard to hear over the piano. God is one of the details. Soon enough the ones meant to be there where drawn to the room. Even if they couldn’t hear the music. That is when God used my voice. God has blessed me with what is known as a “power house” voice. When He did, Holy Spirit blanketed the room so heavily and thick that a young girl gave her life to Jesus at that moment. Gentlemen, highly respected and successful,  fell into worship and praise. Tears of joyous worship and humbled praise fell from every eye. It was the single most amazing thing God has ever used me for. I pray He uses me again and again and again for bigger and greater things to glorify Him. Don’t take this testimony as a brag. I tell you because God is that AWESOME. Who am I? I am nothing but sin wrapped in flesh if it wasn’t for Jesus Christ who died on the cross for me. I can’t do anything if it wasn’t for God who wakes me up, puts air in my lungs, and tells my heart to beat. I AM NOTHING literally, with my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I open my heart and myself and my life to be used by Him for His Glory.

Holy Spirit You are welcomed here. (place hand over heart) Come flood this place and fill the atmosphere. Your Holy presence is what our hearts long for. To be overwhelmed by your presence Lord.

Verse of the Day

Nehemiah 1:5

5 Then I said: “LORD, the God of heaven, the great and awesome God, who keeps his covenant of love with those who love him and keep his commandments,

Verse of the Day

Jeremiah 17:5

5 This is what the LORD says: “Cursed is the one who trusts in man, who draws strength from mere flesh and whose heart turns away from the LORD.