Part 2: Husband’s vs.Wives

So I wanted to dig a bit deeper into relationships. I SAY THIS OUT OF LOVE! ! As iron sharpens iron.(Proverbs 27:17) I’ve gone through enough stuff in my past 3 relationships spanning just about 15 yrs…. learning and growing each time with Jesus. Watching my parents fall apart and now recognizing traits in both the female and male roles played out first hand around me. First to clarify I AM NOT PERFECT. I will protect and defend my guy to no end and yet I will be argumentative at times,  I do have trouble with full submission, etc. I’m a handful. From Part 1, it is clear that there is an action that causes a reaction. Wife first has respect and submit to the husband before she receives unconditional love. I have encountered woman that have everything wrong totally. Married and not having sex with their husbands. UMMMM  excuse me, I don’t know who you think you are but your body doesn’t belong to you. Married and not catering to their husband.  Not doing his laundry or cooking …. even turning down dates. Do you know what this spoiled brat, selfish, self-centered, bigotry does to your husband? To your marriage? What about never supporting him?  Never helping him?  Never being there for him?  Comparing and complaining? You are punching holes in who he is as a man. Proverbs 25:24 & 21:9 state that it is better to live outside of the house on a corner of a roof than in a house with a nagging wife. OUTSIDE…. ON A ROOF…subject to the weather and lack of comfort than to even see you inside a spacious house and deal with you as a nagging complaining wife. Why would he stay with you ladies? I’m all about being a strong woman,  and standing for something and what I believe in…. and no lie I struggle with OBEDIENCE… Do ALL THINGS as if unto the Lord (Ephesians 6:7, Colos. 3:23) ladies you are specifically instructed to treat your husbands as it is fit unto God. (Colos.3:18) It starts with YOU WIVES. Most girls today are defiant,  demanding,  self serving, self centered,spoiled brats…. including myself. Expecting a husband to do what we say, know what we’re thinking,  give us all his time and never work yet be the provider of the family. I’ve literally  watched a chick (I can’t bring myself to call her a woman or even a lady) be a two timing, fake as can be, ill intentioned, back stabbing wife and never (as far as I know) cheat on her husband and go to church and “pray for answers”. Then when he finally took a stand and said enough, she plays a victim.WHAAAT IS YOUR MALFUNCTION LITTLE GIRL?!? You can’t not touch your husband for years and think he’ll sick around.  You can’t not ask him how his day was or help him with things so that he can give you more family time that you’ve been asking for.  You can’t not clean the flipping house and expect him to rub your back. SERIOUSLY…. ladies… if you don’t think that catering and tending to your husband and putting him BEFORE your kids is an ABSOLUTE  COMMAND from God then leave.  No questions, no problems, no attachment  just pack your crap and leave. Your A terrible example to your kids and to others and the world that knows you of what a good wife and woman is. If this offends you then you don’t know Jesus, period. If you aren’t in total agreement with me then you’re not reading the Word and therefore not in agreement with God. Is a hard pill to swallow and we choke on it almost every time…. pill called TRUTH. We allow pride and arrogance to consume us.  The most selfish thing in the world is play victim. OHHHH MY MAN LEFT ME. … OHHHH HE WAS NO GOOD. … OHHHH HE BROKE HIS PROMISES/VOWS….. my response is STUPID IT’S YOUR FAULT.(this isn’t the case for every relationship, if he beats you,  cheats on you,  talks down to you,  scares you,  belittles you, etc… his fault totally leave and if applicable  have him arrested)  Your husband didn’t marry you for you to try, or to accomplish demasculine him. For you to literally break the bank, the house,and your marriage. Through sickness and health, unless you have a psychological meltdown and need Dr’s to help heal your mental status, no forms of 2 faced actions fall under this.  Talking bad about your husband and never to him is not a form of sickness covered under the vows of marriage.  For richer or poorer, this doesn’t mean if you never work and max out the credit cards.  This doesn’t mean disregard the budget. This doesn’t mean act stupid when he asks you to stick to one. First question is are you working?  Are you helping him to reach financial goals? If all your doing is complaining about it #norespect! For better or worse, if he lost his job and you lost everything (house, car, food,etc) you stick with him and support him. Help him and bring him peace not strife. If you are an added stress you bring every type of evil to him and to your marriage. (James 3:16,Roman 1:29) Ladies, I have my own struggles with this as well.  I knew well enough to recognize it and take it to Jesus, go back and at least try and make it right. Can’t take back something you’ve already put out… can only try to make it right and work on your problems with Jesus for the future. Get ready ladies. … part 3 is coming soon.


Mustard Seed


It’s been a journey, one that has been full of mountains, valleys,  strength,  courage,  faith, and trust. I’ve had my share of disobedience, pride, arrogance, and judgements. I can tell you that walking in Faith and standing strong in the Truth isn’t easy. Yesterday,  the transmission went out on my car that still has paper tags. Let me just say,  I was forced into a car after something wrong happened and I should have consulted an attorney first.  Anyway,  the transmission went, and God has been faithful to arrange people in my life (mostly from my job) to assist in driving to and from work. This afternoon,  I had to Uber (form of taxi for those who don’t know) from the office I work from 2 days a week. It’s an hour and 10 minutes from my house. My owner was so awesome and let me use the company Uber account. Blessed so much already just right there.  Total divine appointment happens.  After opening up the app to request pick up 3 times  then delaying it because we still had some straggling patients. I finally requested Uber pick up as the last patient was checking out. I gathered everything I needed to bring to our home office I work at the other 3 days a week and left. Climbing into the car a very polite and friendly  gentleman greets me and we begin the hour and some long journey home. We begin to talk about life and work and kids. I listen with keen ears, grasping at every moment God was with him. His testimony was incredible and reviving.  Bringing hope and strengthening my faith,though I never told him this. From 17 to 21 he battled bone cancer and a grapefruit sized tumor on his right knee. At the age of 21 cancer came back. After more rounds of chemo and radiation he then had to undergo 12 years of steroids. God is faithful! During this time he went to college majored in business management and minor in hospitality. Graduating college, his cousin owned a title company in FL and paid for him to move here and 1 years rent.  6 months in the industry started to tank and his cousin gave him 10k and had to release him. GOD IS FAITHFUL! So he became a manager of an Arby’s and that grew to 12 locations. In a particular location a man kept coming in only on days he was there. Finally, one day this man offered him a position as a  manager of his Chick-fil-A dropping his schedule to just 1 store but a 10% raise in his salary. This was a risk in his career, GOD IS FAITHFUL. The franchise grew and now he manages 3 locations. He met his wife whom was a manager at one of the locations. Upon telling the owner of the engagement, he insisted they just for fun go price everything they would want for their dream wedding. After giving his boss the breakdown of the cost $33,898.00 he never anticipated to find a check in an envelope marked only with his name for 34,000 in his mailbox. For helping his boss achieve his life long dreams he wanted to bless them. GOD IS FAITHFUL! A week or so later he finds another envelope marked only with his name. Separately, the bosses wife bought them their honeymoon. 2 week European cruise. GOD IS FAITHFUL! He was told that he wouldn’t have kids because of all the chemo and radiation, but his wife actually was the one who couldn’t due to medical issues. After 3 years of trying medically to have children they were told to give up by the Dr. Broken, they came home and prayed to God to bless them with a child. A week later she went in sick to the Dr office and found out she was pregnant. GOD IS FAITHFUL! A year later having a second child.  He began to work for Uber on the side initially because he wanted to take his wife on her dream vacation to bora bora,  but the money was so good he continued and is putting that money towards college for his kids and stashing just in case. He was given a place to live by a friend just covering the cost basic costs until he found a house. Finding a dream house, they ended up fighting for in court and winning it. Appraised at a little more than double what they paid for it plus the court and repair fees. Roughly all together paid 200k and the house was worth over 400k. I was amazed,  turning to him and saying,”you are so incredibly blessed.” This lead into the are you a believer and follower of Jesus conversation. Raised a Catholic,  he wasn’t “religious ” (thank God). He wasn’t an avid church goer. He admittedly stated that he didn’t live a life devoted to being close to God. His testimony moved me so thoroughly, I pondered how he wasn’t closer to God. I liked this guy as a person,  I admired him and his life journey. He brought me hope and strength and a message from God even if he didn’t realize it.  I hope to know him better as we have found a potential way to work together. I mulled or over and over the entire conversation. God kept bringing to me Faith the size of a mustard seed.  This man wasn’t a radical believer, but he knew well enough to pray and believe and trust God. Taking leaps of faith with every step and milestone in his life. GOD IS FAITHFUL! When all odds are against you by the world’s standards,  GOD IS FAITHFUL! If you trust God and believe He can and will handle things for you and do not waiver. ….. even the smallest amount of faith will produce the biggest blessings you ever could have imagined. Through all things, GOD IS FAITHFUL!


Devotional Day 2

1 Thessalonians 4 : 13 -14

13 But I would not have you to be ignorant, brethren, concerning them which are asleep, that ye sorrow not, even as others which have no hope.

14 For if we believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so them also which sleep in Jesus will God bring with him.

Have you dealt with the loss of a loved one? Have you moved forward? Do you have hope? How do you know God is bringing you hope  to your life if you’ve lost a loved one or not?


Losing Shane was such a shock. The pain was too much to bare. God has given me a peace that surpasses all understanding. I hurt everyday. I have joy every day. I miss him so much. I am now after God, seeking Him so fiercely the way Shane taught me.

God I come to You in the name of Jesus. I thank You God for the days you have given me with Shane. I ask You to be with me. I seek to know You the way Shane did.God come to me. Hear my prayers, my cries, God guide me. Show my next step. You are the lantern to our feet and guide our path. Father, please use me in ways I can’t even imagine for Your Glory. God I ask for understanding, wisdom, and discernment in the name of Jesus. God I want to know Your Power in my life the way you used Shane. Holy Spirit filled. God slay me in the Spirit. I love You Jesus. I love you Father God. ALL Glory, Honor, Praise, Worship goes to You Jesus, goes to You God. Thank You, thank You!! AMEN.

Fruit of the Spirit

Can’t say things are bad for God is with me. It took Shane passing for things that he taught me to really hit home. Correct doctrine is the biggest key (Titus 1:9, 2 Tim 2:15, John 6:51) but also understanding.(James 1:5, Proverbs 2:6) God has given me the peace and joy by Holy Spirit (Gal 5:22-23) to handle this time in my life. I am reminded once again how God never fails ( Psalm 136, Duet 31:6), even though I fail Him. Hence why we are to pickup our cross DAILY (Luke 9:23) and to ad onto that ALL DAY. You can drop it at points. ALSO we MUST put on the Armor of God DAILY (Eph 6:10-18). I like to visualize what that would be physically. Think about the protection and the weight of armor, that you also are carrying a shield (Faith) and a sword (the Word of God). Not even just that but we also must pick up our cross. So the weight of that. Shane was a bone-a-fied tested and true Profit of God. Some are mocking him on my Facebook. UUGGG how I distaste Facebook. There is a man named David Hogan have you ever heard of him? He was the only other person on earth the Shane related to and mentored from because they had similar anointing. Shane always said David was his earthly mentor. God Himself was Shane’s mentor stepping out of Heaven for 7 days and spending time with Shane. I want to know God like this. I want to please God so much that He would step from Heaven and be with me. Like Moses….. like Shane. I seek understanding and wisdom and discernment by the Holy Spirit. I seek the POWER of God (Matt 22:29), for Him to use my life for His glory. First I had to be broken to a point of nothing I could do. I lost my Baby, but what he taught me and showed me and spoke to me is ever with me. It’s because of God we met, and because of Shane I am now walking in the Truth. All glory be to Jesus!! All praise and worship to God in the Highest!!!. You are in the will of God when your life reflects the Word of God.(I’ll get into Shane teachings later) We are to DO ALL things Jesus did when He walked this earth AND MORE!!! (John 14:12) Shane loved Jesus so much, he always told me that if we are to be together I must first love Jesus MORE than him. The reality of that didn’t really take root until God took Shane home. I always loved Jesus with all I had and sought Him with hunger most of my life. Correct doctrine and the TRUTH of the Word of God is what Shane taught me as a sought God more and more in my life. But I never was angry with God or upset at Him when He took my beloved Shane. I only Sought to know Him better and closer like my Shane knew Him. I understand why he was the way he was, why he told me what he told me. I understood his love for Christ Jesus and God the Father. God loves him and us EVEN MORE than we could ever love Him. We can’t comprehend God in all His infinite ways and thoughts. (Isaiah 55:8-9) God was, is, and will be forever. He is God he LIVES in the past, He LIVES now in the present, and He LIVES in the future. (Eccles 3:15) Something we can’t wrap our simple minds around is that He is CURRENTLY in the past AND the present AND the future. Nothing we do is a shock or surprise. Because He already been there and is there. Trust in Lord Jesus. Have faith to LITERALLY make mountains move. Psalm 118 keeps coming to mind. If God is with you then who can come against you? (Romans 8:31) In everything we do delight in the Lord.(Psalm 37:4) God is so involved with you that he knows the number of hairs on your head (Luke 12:7, Matt 10:30) and has a count of every tear that fell from your eyes (Psalm 56:8). THAT is how IMPORTANT we are to Him. Can we say that we are even striving to be that close to God and know Him like he does us? Remember God doesn’t have to. He is the Almighty Creator. The Author and Finisher. I AM. He could have easily just wiped us out and started over again, BUT He decided to instead send His Son, His ONLY Son, to DIE for OUR SINS.(John 3:16) I believe and love Jesus so much that I KNOW that I can do all things through Him. I won’t leave this earth until God is done with me here. (1 Samuel 14:8-14, Matthew 19:26, Luke 1:37, Proverbs 3:6, Jeremiah 32:27)