I am going to share with you something that I have felt God calling me to do but it has not be the right timing. Today was a big day. I broke. First time in a very long time I broke into such a rage that the body tremors lasted almost half a day. God made me very different than my family. Like most of the population I came from what would be considered a “broken home”. Divorced parents and of course each of them having their crazy to deal with. We all have our faults, I found no reason to speak about them. As I get older and the more I know and understand God the more I see. The more you see the more you understand. The more you understand your tolerance level for BS you take. my first conversation with God was at the age of 4. I would sneak off into the second living room we had and just talk with Him for hours. Once taking the pennies I had and holding them up to ceiling telling Him to take it. Not realizing that what I was doing was Biblical. I was more open to Him at the age of 4 than anyone else in my family combined. Over the years I have strayed and come back to Jesus as different milestones happened. My parents divorce made me the most committed to the church I was attending until I started dating my ex husband whom had literally forced me to choose between him and God at one point. I fell away from God for many years to find my life empty and meaningless. A brand new baby and move to Texas and I came running back to God with tenacity and famished hunger. I divorced my ex husband and slipped up here and there but you can never un-know things. By this point, I could never not hear God I could only choose whether to obey Him or not. So 1 surprise pregnancy at the same time of a bad break up and I choose to become extremely devoted to Him once again. A series of divine events took place. I randomly met Shane, I had a string of jobs each better than the last, my first and worst car accident where I was at fault quickly followed by a second. My newest chiropractor hired me on the spot as he was adjusting me from my accident. Shane taught me so much but he was battling his own demons and God brought him home sooner rather than later. Soon after I met my now fiance who was a patient in the Dr. office I was managing. At first he was my business partner and closest mentor, then it developed into us being inseparable. There hasn’t been a day since we started this adventure where we haven’t been together. The more you seek Him and understand Him the faster He moves in your life. This is so crazy, My original content of this post was entirely something else, this must be for someone reading this. I was going to explain what happened today to cause me to break but God wanted something else to come out. When you understand that you as a human can never ever be good enough to deserve God to be good to you, and you accept Him for the almighty God He is, then will you see just how quickly He moves on your behalf. Even if it seems bad at the time. (Romans 8:28) I want to know God so intimately, because of that He moved me to where I wanted to be and He needed me to be within a year. I recently have been adjusting to the few businesses we now have and the blending of the families while dealing with the negativity of the outside world. By His grace and mercy with me I am still standing and alive. Today I was deeply seeded with feelings and thought that what I feel now and what I am dealing with is to prep me for the task He has assigned me for my future. Moses had to live in the wilderness of the desert and learn how to survive first before he could lead a population through it. (Exodus 2:1-15) The faster you understand there is absolutely nothing you can do to be good enough or to “make” God do the thing you are praying for, the faster you’ll see Him taking you from where you are to where you never thought you’d be. Trust Him fully to not worry or have fear. This is piggy backing off what I was saying yesterday. Obey Him when you hear Him or discern His will. I lost many years of my life that I wish I could take back and give to Him. This life is so much better. I mean a thrill and joy and excitement beyond any amount of partying a person can have. Never feeling alone or unloved, even when you have been pushed to breaking point and sitting in your walk in closet bursting into a hard cry because you know the gravity of what you just had to do to fight for your family and their equality. Or that one time you where fully aware that you where overdosed and had to pray to God your heart didn’t explode. Guys I’m telling you I have pretty much been through it all. Not once did God ever leave me, He was merciful enough to not let me die that way. For sure would have not been in Heaven. He loved me enough to pick me up and clean me off and give me value and meaning and most of all PURPOSE. I am going to do something I have never done before. I am going to give all of you my email address. I encourage you guys to ask me questions about Jesus, just have conversations, if you just need to talk, to ask for prayers, etc. My email is PerfectPersonForTheJob@gmail.com I look forward to connecting with you guys!!!
Matthew 22 : 29
29 Jesus replied, “You are in error because you do not know the Scriptures or the power of God.”
This is for the Christian. The entire Bible is for the Christian. This staple Scripture, is reality. Why do we as Christians fail? Because we don’t know the WORD of God……. AND/OR…… the POWER of God. Yes! Right here Jesus Himself clearly identifies why we fail. Many things lead up to this. Scripture tells us to study to be approved. (2 Tim 2:5) We are to do as Jesus did and MORE. This prompts the question, what did Jesus do?
Hebrews 11:1 tells us exactly what faith is.
“Now faith is the substance of things hope for; the evidence of things not seen.” (KJV)
To further that let’s hop down to verse 3.
“Through faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the Word of God, so that things which are seen were not made of things which do appear. ” (KJV)
This brings us all the way back to Genesis 1:1
In order to have faith we need to know what it is. Not just know it but know what God considers faith. Memorize this scripture if anyone ever asks you what is faith you give them exactly what God views as faith.
Is been a few days since I’ve made a post. I can’t say that I’ve been really desiring to post. God is so good. Always on time. And supplying in abundance grace and mercy. I have noticed Him in every detail of my life. Noticing Him in every detail, also shows me areas I struggle. God is so good, all the time. And all the time God is good. All good things come from God. (James 1:17) I started writing a song, based on a frowns experience currently. Something I’ve gone through so many times. I’ve been slacking on my studies and devotional. Caught up in the business of life. So many things catch my attention. I have become so much more bold in my faith and speaking up for what I believe. I have come down to a few absolute staple scriptures for the beginning of learning the Truth. First, understand that the Word of God is EXACT. Every Word, period, and exclamation. Second, what is faith? (Hebrews 11:1) What authority is given to us as ambassadors of Jesus? (Luke 10:19) Third, how do we do error/fail as followers of Jesus? (Matthew 22:29) There is so many scriptures that base off these, such as what is expected to happen to us as followers of Jesus. What we are promised. And how to deal with situations that arise in life. From a particular pastor I have realized to notice more details that go further into studies. So much content in the Scriptures. So let’s take it slow.