I am going to share with you something that I have felt God calling me to do but it has not be the right timing. Today was a big day. I broke. First time in a very long time I broke into such a rage that the body tremors lasted almost half a day. God made me very different than my family. Like most of the population I came from what would be considered a “broken home”. Divorced parents and of course each of them having their crazy to deal with. We all have our faults, I found no reason to speak about them. As I get older and the more I know and understand God the more I see. The more you see the more you understand. The more you understand your tolerance level for BS you take. my first conversation with God was at the age of 4. I would sneak off into the second living room we had and just talk with Him for hours. Once taking the pennies I had and holding them up to ceiling telling Him to take it. Not realizing that what I was doing was Biblical. I was more open to Him at the age of 4 than anyone else in my family combined. Over the years I have strayed and come back to Jesus as different milestones happened. My parents divorce made me the most committed to the church I was attending until I started dating my ex husband whom had literally forced me to choose between him and God at one point. I fell away from God for many years to find my life empty and meaningless. A brand new baby and move to Texas and I came running back to God with tenacity and famished hunger. I divorced my ex husband and slipped up here and there but you can never un-know things. By this point, I could never not hear God I could only choose whether to obey Him or not. So 1 surprise pregnancy at the same time of a bad break up and I choose to become extremely devoted to Him once again. A series of divine events took place. I randomly met Shane, I had a string of jobs each better than the last, my first and worst car accident where I was at fault quickly followed by a second. My newest chiropractor hired me on the spot as he was adjusting me from my accident. Shane taught me so much but he was battling his own demons and God brought him home sooner rather than later. Soon after I met my now fiance who was a patient in the Dr. office I was managing. At first he was my business partner and closest mentor, then it developed into us being inseparable. There hasn’t been a day since we started this adventure where we haven’t been together. The more you seek Him and understand Him the faster He moves in your life. This is so crazy, My original content of this post was entirely something else, this must be for someone reading this. I was going to explain what happened today to cause me to break but God wanted something else to come out. When you understand that you as a human can never ever be good enough to deserve God to be good to you, and you accept Him for the almighty God He is, then will you see just how quickly He moves on your behalf. Even if it seems bad at the time. (Romans 8:28) I want to know God so intimately, because of that He moved me to where I wanted to be and He needed me to be within a year. I recently have been adjusting to the few businesses we now have and the blending of the families while dealing with the negativity of the outside world. By His grace and mercy with me I am still standing and alive. Today I was deeply seeded with feelings and thought that what I feel now and what I am dealing with is to prep me for the task He has assigned me for my future. Moses had to live in the wilderness of the desert and learn how to survive first before he could lead a population through it. (Exodus 2:1-15) The faster you understand there is absolutely nothing you can do to be good enough or to “make” God do the thing you are praying for, the faster you’ll see Him taking you from where you are to where you never thought you’d be. Trust Him fully to not worry or have fear. This is piggy backing off what I was saying yesterday. Obey Him when you hear Him or discern His will. I lost many years of my life that I wish I could take back and give to Him. This life is so much better. I mean a thrill and joy and excitement beyond any amount of partying a person can have. Never feeling alone or unloved, even when you have been pushed to breaking point and sitting in your walk in closet bursting into a hard cry because you know the gravity of what you just had to do to fight for your family and their equality. Or that one time you where fully aware that you where overdosed and had to pray to God your heart didn’t explode. Guys I’m telling you I have pretty much been through it all. Not once did God ever leave me, He was merciful enough to not let me die that way. For sure would have not been in Heaven. He loved me enough to pick me up and clean me off and give me value and meaning and most of all PURPOSE. I am going to do something I have never done before. I am going to give all of you my email address. I encourage you guys to ask me questions about Jesus, just have conversations, if you just need to talk, to ask for prayers, etc. My email is PerfectPersonForTheJob@gmail.com I look forward to connecting with you guys!!!
My family and I have been really digging into the ministries of Creflo and Taffi Dollar. Today, as we were watching via online streaming connected to our big screen tv. I was reminded of something that Shane instilled in me in so many ways. Fearlessness!!! Pastor Dollar has been working on a series of spiritual blindness. Now as I can say much on the topic and relay all I understand and know about it, I will keep it simple. Fear is the only foothold the enemy has so he can enter your life. Fear is what holds you and binds you to your sickness, poverty, anger, depression, etc. In the words of Pastor Creflo Dollar,” Fear brings hopelessness, fear will contaminate your faith.” See the biggest take away I have ever gained from anyone who has ever ministered or fed me was the absolute fearlessness Shane instilled. Knowledge is the key. Ignorance to the Word of God means you will acquire a very large debt to the enemy. I like to use the speeding example. If you are pulled over for speeding and you tell the cop you never saw the sign does that stop the officer from giving you a ticket? The answer to that is no, you still get a ticket and you learn the lesson. (Hosea 4:6, Matthew 22:29) We parish because we do not gain understanding and knowledge of God’s Word. One thing I admire still to this day is Shane’s absolute fearlessness when it comes to the promises of God. I can say that when it comes to finding jobs or relationships I am pretty fearless. The trust I have in God far out ways the fear of being penniless or with no relationship, etc. GOD IS GREATER than ALL THINGS!!
Ok so missing the mark, what exactly does that mean? There is something I say frequently,” Off by a millimeter off by a mile!” I’ve written in depth the meaning of this. To wrap it up in a nutshell it’s a golfing term. If you hit the ball even the slightest but on the right or left the trajectory of the ball will be off by miles even from the destination of the hole. It’s all about angles and positioning. one of my favorite examples of this was a sermon I heard about fear. This highly elaborate and excited pastor was identifying fear. Well first what is fear? Fear is the OPPOSITE of Faith. (Pslam 56:3 ,23:4,27:1, 118:6, Ephesians 2:8-9, 2 Tim 1:7, Romans 10:27, 1 Corinth 10:13, Philip 4:6-7) All of these go into details about fear and Faith. To hit a mark we first must know what the mark is. As a Christian the “mark” is always Jesus and the Kingdom of God. Therefore, we must have correct doctrine. As this pastor proceeded with his energized sermon few things were pointed out by the Holy Spirit.
- he only acknowledge worldly fears
- he never touched scriptures about not having fear
- avoided the response when asking the congregation what they fear “stepping out of the will of God”
- didn’t once lead the congregation to the Jesus and why He died on the cross.
(Matthew 11:27, 28:18, Ephes 1:21, Coloss 2:10, John 17:2 go into depth about the authority given to us. )
This very energetic pastor was literally running around the church yelling with excitement holding the mic to random people in the audience asking their fears. Basic things came up; heights, bugs, reptiles, etc. I at this point had a very solid fearless mentor and my only response was fear God. Fear what not following Him will do to you. This was ignored. Yet the girl next to me stated spiders. this girl was his disciple for over 10 years. She followed his every word and command. He addressed her comment on the spot stating,” Not if your with me your not!” WAIT!!! She has been under your wing for 10 years and you didn’t know this fear of spiders of hers? She isn’t cured yet from it?
At this point the Holy Spirit had me squirming in my seat. I was uncomfortable. God will let you know when something isn’t right even if it sounds holy and imitates God’s Word. We aren’t supposed to FEAR. I mean we are human and we will have fear but it is to be fleeting. You cannot trust in God and be afraid of anything other than Him at the same time!!! See how easily we as Christians can be swayed away from Jesus? Can be a heartbeat and we forgot who God is. (Psalm 118:6) WHO shall I fear, if God is with me? I should fear no person!! I was reminded about how we as people are afraid of those in authority or of what people might say or think. If anything said or done is out for the will of God or His Word you must stand up, speak up, or disagree. To the response of the fear of bugs. internally I was stricken almost with disgust, SERIOUSLY? God SHUT THE MOUTHS of LIONS for Daniel. There is NO animal or insect God didn’t create. He has control and command of them all. So do you! I’m not saying deliberately place yourself in harms way. If you aren’t acting in the name and of the will of Jesus you simple are placing yourself in a compromising position. Yet still God will always have your best interest. How could someone be afraid of a thing yet not expect God to be with you. God is always bigger than your fears!!
Ok, well lets take this to another level. If you saw a demon would you run? I mean now a days satan has become harder to identify. People aren’t climbing walls and spinning heads most of the time. They just lie, steal, kill, cheat, etc. In the event you physically saw the appearance of a demon how would you be? No lie I would have to quickly get over my fear, because that is the first point of control of satan. To make you afraid so you lose Faith in God. I haven’t encountered this situation yet either. Now we are talking about the POWER of God. A foundation scripture for me is Luke 10:19 – Behold, I give unto you POWER to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over ALL the power of the enemy: AND NOTHING shall by ANY MEANS hurt you. Jesus Himself gives us this authority to bend satan to the Will of God. The only fear you can ever truly justify is the fear of God.
As the sermon was wrapped up, he has someone that had a fear of heights climb a ladder. I’m not sure what this proved or showed. This was the last sermon I ever sat through by this pastor. He missed the mark entirely!!! By missing the mark it proved his intent, the intention wasn’t to lead others to Jesus but to showboat himself as a pastoral leader.
JESUS, His Blood and WHY He died on the cross is the mark. Every stripe of on the back of Jesus is for everything that puts us in fear. One for Sickness, one for loneliness, one for depression, one for anxiety, etc. Ultimately, He dies on the cross, and we are never again to fear death. All of these things are taken care of and payed for by the Blood of Christ. He was the Perfect Sacrifice. By His Blood we are given the Holy Spirit. Jesus took fear and nailed it to the cross saying to us NO MORE!!! IT IS FINISHED!! We were given the authority OVER ALL THINGS.
Correct or incorrect doctrine? Besides being completely incorrect in his message he was totally missing the mark. Point all things to Jesus and the Cross. This brings me back to this….. off by a millimeter off by a mile. Somewhere in the beginning of his walk with Christ something was just a little bit off. Now, years later, he was way off by miles. This is why we are to ask, seek and knock for WISDOM and DISCERNMENT. You need to study the Word of God to be approved. Knowing the Word and knowing WHO GOD IS. Through that is how the Holy Spirit can let you know the TRUTH. Really take note when you allow the spirit of fear to feed you. Overcome it with Faith that no matter what the fear is God trumps it all.
There’s do much always going on. Pretty crazy stuff. This morning I was so locked into Creflo Dollar it was just amazing. And refreshing to have a Word from God be so accurate. You know, even in my faults God’s love abounds. Seriously, it was swift and exact to a thought I was having no more than an hour before I watched his sermon. Not even just that, things I was thinking over the past few weeks. I found myself caught in this cycle of trying to “work” my way into blessings. I’m not praying enough, I’m not studying enough, I’m not taking about Him enough, etc. Therefore, I’m not seeing the results a really want. Hey guys, I’m there but not all the way there. I get suckered into the easy lies of the enemy. Distraction is the biggest tool of the enemy. Turning what is good into a sinful cycle, restraining progress. This doesn’t negate the fact that in order to have a full life of abundance you must do 3 things. Trust God, Obey Him, and Worship Him. To do these things you have to study His Word, seek His presence, and share the Good News of Jesus. So, YOU ARE ENOUGH!! And that doesn’t mean that if there are areas you are slacking in it absolutely doesn’t mean that God isn’t with you or hearing you. Just…. get out of your way and let go of the steering wheel.
Revelation tells of war and wrath and chaos….. my heart is saddened and hurting for ppl as a nation. Where those who’ve done nothing are catching the rage of others who are too caught up in their feelings about the trespasses of others….. non connected to them. This shows not only the ignorance of the population… but the totality of mindset of the world….. satan has his way with 98% of the population and it sickens me. I true test of who you are is how you react and how influenced you are by others instead of having control of yourself and thoughts. I pass over the posts now bc I can’t physically handle it anymore. Gits I’ve only been back to social media for like 6 months. Create an don’t ignore what’s going on…. but make your page a sage and joyous page to uplift and inspire others to be better in their life.
What are you waiting for?
Isaiah 58:11 – 12 (KJV)
11 And the Lord shall guide thee continually, and satisfy thy soul in drought, and make fat thy bones: and thou shalt be like a watered garden, and like a spring of water, whose waters fail not. 12 And they that shall be of thee shall build the old waste places: thou shalt raise up the foundations of many generations; and thou shalt be called, The repairer of the breach, The restorer of paths to dwell in.
I feel this this pull, God reminding me at every corner how my calling is for Him. I love Him so much. I am not sure how you guys feel about christian dubstep / house music but it is pretty awesome. I am HUGE HUGE music person. I have trained to sing and dance since I was 4. God will use these talents one day soon. (1 Peter 4:10) I find myself falling in love with Jesus over and over again. Remember that we are the BRIDE of Christ. there is a ROMANCE that transpires. (Gen. 28:10-22, Exod. 3:1-17, John 21:15, John1:29, Ephis. 5:27) God is so AMAZING guys. You can’t tell me there is no water in a pool I’m already swimming in. He continually is lifting me up when I feel abandoned and unsure. With my business and in my life I have been overlooking the progress and being thankful for what is happening. Feeling like I need to be farther, and do more, and have faster results, etc. The fact that I am so selfish is so disheartening. How can I even be so ungrateful to my God? I love the romance I have with Jesus. Like my husband he ensures and encourages. Like my best friend He defends me, and lifts me up. Like my lover, He wraps around me and tenderly loves unconditionally. Being my God, He commands my life and graciously shows me how much I need Him every second of every day. Have you ever been so absorbed into something others called you obsessed? I have…Be obsessed with Jesus. Out of all the things I have been told I am “obsessed” with my favorite is JESUS. hahaha from fitness, to business….. my truest obsession is God. As I follow His path for my life, I have found so much happiness at the purest submission to God. Standing my ground even when I have oppressors and nay sayers. Jesus is who defines me, guides me and instructs my life. THANK GOD!!! Blinded by the light (Acts 9:1-19) now I can SEE for real!
Pray through all seasons Pray in all circumstances Continually Pray through suffering Intercede for those in pain With joy, fill the gaps “Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus” – 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
Galatians 6:9 (NIV)
9 Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.
I have been pressed to write more on my blog. I can’t lie, I have been distracted and caught up with my business. God is so awesome guys. No joke. i’m doing what is known as a run. A run in my business is when you put your head down and grind it out until you look up and your at the goal. My goal seems distant from me, because I set the bar to be at the top. Like life, everything is a roller coaster. I am going through every emotion every day multiple times a day. I have realized the rate of mindset in others and myself. I have recently been speaking to people around the world initiating conversations that are about business and Jesus just take over and the whole conversation roll into one about HIM!!! God is so good guys. I have neglected to write a blog in along while. God has reminded me multiple times. My daughter asked me when I would write one again because she follows it. Guys she is 9. I was taken aback, I really am slacking if my 9 year old is asking me when I was going to write again. A hard reminder to never forget that God has called me to also continue to keep this going. I have many testimonials to share from the last month or so. Places in which God shows me just how in doubt and times of struggling faith He will always be there. YES, I struggle in points of faith at times. During these points I blast the worship music and remember WHY I must keep pressing forward. My WHY is because God told me to do something. Guess what guys, because He told me to do it, I have the strongest driven passion for it. God will never ask you to do something that He didn’t create you for. He made you specifically to be who you are, to love what you love, to have specific skills and talents, and thought processes. He made you to use all of these to bring Him greater glory and be the fishers of men. (Matthew 4:19, John 21:4-17) All these things is the very thing that drives you, that pushes you, that brings you the greatest joy and happiness in life, what fulfills you and gives you reason to want to live. Don’t allow the enemy to lie to you, telling you that you are unhappy or miserable. GOD is greater. Greater is He that lives in me than he that lives of the the world. (1 John 4:4) What does this mean? This means that whatever you have going on, whatever circumstance is draining you God is greater. That negative husband, nagging wife, friend telling you that you aren’t going to make it, those waiting to see you fail, those who lie about you, or turn their backs to you. YOU BELONG TO GOD…. THAT MEANS YOU ARE UNSTOPPABLE!!! You can feel the hurt f the circumstance but you don’t break to it. I’ve more than taken my fair share before building this business and helping people change the direction of their life and family trees from poverty to wealth (in more ways than just financial). Now that I’m actually doing it I can’t even talk to my family about it, not because I don’t want to help them but because it’s me they want to not even know about it. So to that I say, Luke 4:24, Mark 6:4, Matthew 13:57. A prophet is not without honor EXCEPT in his own town.
Ok, guys, I know that I have been touch and go on here. I must admit this journey God has me on is awesomely wild. This past weekend was the international convention for my business and company. If you have never been affiliated with a Jesus founded and Bible based company then you haven’t ever lived. Myself and my team were recognized on stage in front of 30 thousand people. All Honor and glory be to God. There is no way I would have been able to do that or lead my partners to do that if I wasn’t following the Holy Spirit. It’s funny how things work out. God has shown me so much transpiring in the back ground. I’ve been given the stories and testimonies and struggles of leaders that are some of the most influential in network marketing and of the world. I saw others for who they really are at points. God revealed to me somethings that aren’t as wonderful. God is of the details. He plans for His beloved to be set up for life in abundance. Subsequently, that means the blessings overflow unto those around them. Couple scriptures come to mind; Psalms 105:15 and 1 Chronicles 16:22 both speak of not doing harm to the anointed and chosen of God. While Luke 4:24, Mark 6:4, and Matthew 13:57 all inform us that a prophet is not accepted in his/her home town. I realized this in a great magnitude when others whom I never thought in a million years to betray or slander me did so behind my back and then smile and plead innocents to me while being promoted through my business because of me. How often do we remember that God is one of details. I thank God for those people. I need them in my life. Without them my life wouldn’t reflect the Word of God. John 15:18-27 is a key factor. At one point even Jesus mother Mary called Him “unstable” and “unbalanced” to the crowd He was preaching to. Matthew 7:16 shows you that you must look at the fruit that a person bears to know their heart. All that has happened in my life and my business has been a strategic plan by God. As I have grown into my walk and strength in my faith I see this more so now than ever before. By His will I was able to attend an exclusive pool party hosted by the leaders of my business. It was here that you realized that these people are the ones who are highly favored by God. So much so that our ENTIRE organization were brought together by God because of how strong and devout our faith in Him is. Because He knows that we would never deny Him and bring others to Him as well as show them how to gain life in abundance with Him. Father God is so AMAZING. and Jesus continuously leaves me in AWE of Him. As the day proceeded and we had tons of fun and networked with the best of the best in the industry, in the company, and as people of faith, God had another plan in mind. There was an impromptu worship. A beautiful pianist sat at the piano and started to play. As she played 2 girls began to sing, though beautiful voices they were hard to hear over the piano. God is one of the details. Soon enough the ones meant to be there where drawn to the room. Even if they couldn’t hear the music. That is when God used my voice. God has blessed me with what is known as a “power house” voice. When He did, Holy Spirit blanketed the room so heavily and thick that a young girl gave her life to Jesus at that moment. Gentlemen, highly respected and successful, fell into worship and praise. Tears of joyous worship and humbled praise fell from every eye. It was the single most amazing thing God has ever used me for. I pray He uses me again and again and again for bigger and greater things to glorify Him. Don’t take this testimony as a brag. I tell you because God is that AWESOME. Who am I? I am nothing but sin wrapped in flesh if it wasn’t for Jesus Christ who died on the cross for me. I can’t do anything if it wasn’t for God who wakes me up, puts air in my lungs, and tells my heart to beat. I AM NOTHING literally, with my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I open my heart and myself and my life to be used by Him for His Glory.
Holy Spirit You are welcomed here. (place hand over heart) Come flood this place and fill the atmosphere. Your Holy presence is what our hearts long for. To be overwhelmed by your presence Lord.