God is an awesome God, He reigns over Heaven and earth with wisdom, power, and love. Our God is am awesome God!!
I lay here tired but can’t sleep. This my nightly fight. Waiting for sleep to befriend me. As I lay in the dark, my eyes sting with exhaustion, I pray with an overwhelmed heart, brimming with humbled thanks to Jesus. I am so thankful for my life, my children, my man, and for the many many blessings of God. Every night I feel just how small I am on this earth yet just how much God’s love abounds in my life. I daily fight my flesh. The last few weeks I’ve been fighting off infection and have been quite sluggish and lazy. It was yesterday that I realized that this was a sneaky attack of the enemy slowing the progress of my business and shadowing my leadership. Yet every night, I lay awake in my mind as my physical body is beyond tired thinking about the wondrous and glorious blessings and gifts God has given me. The thing I learned the most from Shane’s death was that time is the most valued commodity we have. God is so good that He allows me to breath, for my heart to beat, and gives me sound mind. My children are safe, alive, and well. My Husband to be its absolutely amazing. God has blessed me with things I sought after and more. I recognize that I am with His favor to even live in this Era or even with this freedom to own a business that is centered around Him. Helping as many ppl as I can save and make money from home. God is in every fiber of my life the good and bad. Yet, nothing is truly bad for a child of God. God took what was tragic and flipped it into something even greater than I ever thought possible. When I think back over my lifetime I can clearly see Him guiding and leading the steps of life even in the valley’s.
There’s do much always going on. Pretty crazy stuff. This morning I was so locked into Creflo Dollar it was just amazing. And refreshing to have a Word from God be so accurate. You know, even in my faults God’s love abounds. Seriously, it was swift and exact to a thought I was having no more than an hour before I watched his sermon. Not even just that, things I was thinking over the past few weeks. I found myself caught in this cycle of trying to “work” my way into blessings. I’m not praying enough, I’m not studying enough, I’m not taking about Him enough, etc. Therefore, I’m not seeing the results a really want. Hey guys, I’m there but not all the way there. I get suckered into the easy lies of the enemy. Distraction is the biggest tool of the enemy. Turning what is good into a sinful cycle, restraining progress. This doesn’t negate the fact that in order to have a full life of abundance you must do 3 things. Trust God, Obey Him, and Worship Him. To do these things you have to study His Word, seek His presence, and share the Good News of Jesus. So, YOU ARE ENOUGH!! And that doesn’t mean that if there are areas you are slacking in it absolutely doesn’t mean that God isn’t with you or hearing you. Just…. get out of your way and let go of the steering wheel.
11 Lord, let your ear be attentive to the prayer of this your servant and to the prayer of your servants who delight in revering your name. Give your servant success today by granting him favor in the presence of this man.” I was cupbearer to the king
Galatians 6:9 (NIV)
9 Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.
I have been pressed to write more on my blog. I can’t lie, I have been distracted and caught up with my business. God is so awesome guys. No joke. i’m doing what is known as a run. A run in my business is when you put your head down and grind it out until you look up and your at the goal. My goal seems distant from me, because I set the bar to be at the top. Like life, everything is a roller coaster. I am going through every emotion every day multiple times a day. I have realized the rate of mindset in others and myself. I have recently been speaking to people around the world initiating conversations that are about business and Jesus just take over and the whole conversation roll into one about HIM!!! God is so good guys. I have neglected to write a blog in along while. God has reminded me multiple times. My daughter asked me when I would write one again because she follows it. Guys she is 9. I was taken aback, I really am slacking if my 9 year old is asking me when I was going to write again. A hard reminder to never forget that God has called me to also continue to keep this going. I have many testimonials to share from the last month or so. Places in which God shows me just how in doubt and times of struggling faith He will always be there. YES, I struggle in points of faith at times. During these points I blast the worship music and remember WHY I must keep pressing forward. My WHY is because God told me to do something. Guess what guys, because He told me to do it, I have the strongest driven passion for it. God will never ask you to do something that He didn’t create you for. He made you specifically to be who you are, to love what you love, to have specific skills and talents, and thought processes. He made you to use all of these to bring Him greater glory and be the fishers of men. (Matthew 4:19, John 21:4-17) All these things is the very thing that drives you, that pushes you, that brings you the greatest joy and happiness in life, what fulfills you and gives you reason to want to live. Don’t allow the enemy to lie to you, telling you that you are unhappy or miserable. GOD is greater. Greater is He that lives in me than he that lives of the the world. (1 John 4:4) What does this mean? This means that whatever you have going on, whatever circumstance is draining you God is greater. That negative husband, nagging wife, friend telling you that you aren’t going to make it, those waiting to see you fail, those who lie about you, or turn their backs to you. YOU BELONG TO GOD…. THAT MEANS YOU ARE UNSTOPPABLE!!! You can feel the hurt f the circumstance but you don’t break to it. I’ve more than taken my fair share before building this business and helping people change the direction of their life and family trees from poverty to wealth (in more ways than just financial). Now that I’m actually doing it I can’t even talk to my family about it, not because I don’t want to help them but because it’s me they want to not even know about it. So to that I say, Luke 4:24, Mark 6:4, Matthew 13:57. A prophet is not without honor EXCEPT in his own town.