When Sleep Eludes You

God is an awesome God, He reigns over Heaven and earth with wisdom, power, and love. Our God is am awesome God!!

I lay here tired but can’t sleep.  This my nightly fight. Waiting for sleep to befriend me.  As I lay in the dark, my eyes sting with exhaustion, I pray with an overwhelmed heart, brimming with humbled thanks to Jesus. I am so thankful for my life, my children, my man, and for the many many blessings of God. Every night I feel just how small I am on this earth yet just how much God’s love abounds in my life.  I daily fight my flesh.  The last few weeks I’ve been fighting off infection and have been quite sluggish and lazy.  It was yesterday that I realized that this was a sneaky attack of the enemy slowing the progress of my business and shadowing my leadership. Yet every night, I lay awake in my mind as my physical body is beyond tired thinking about the wondrous and glorious blessings and gifts God has given me. The thing I learned the most from Shane’s death was that time is the most valued commodity we have.  God is so good that He allows me to breath, for my heart to beat, and gives me sound mind.  My children are safe, alive, and well. My Husband to be its absolutely amazing. God has blessed me with things I sought after and more.  I recognize that I am with His favor to even live in this Era or even with this freedom to own a business that is centered around Him. Helping as many ppl as I can save and make money from home. God is in every fiber of my life the good and bad. Yet, nothing is truly bad for a child of God. God took what was tragic and flipped it into something even greater than I ever thought possible. When I think back over my lifetime I can clearly see Him guiding and leading the steps of life even in the valley’s.  

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DISTRACTION 

There’s do much always going on. Pretty crazy stuff. This morning I was so locked into Creflo Dollar it was just amazing.  And refreshing to have a Word from God be so accurate.  You know, even in my faults God’s love abounds. Seriously, it was swift and exact to a thought I was having no more than an hour before I watched his sermon.  Not even just that, things I was thinking over the past few weeks.  I found myself caught in this cycle of trying to “work” my way into blessings. I’m not praying enough, I’m not studying enough, I’m not taking about Him enough, etc. Therefore, I’m not seeing the results a really want.  Hey guys, I’m there but not all the way there.  I get suckered into the easy lies of the enemy. Distraction is the biggest tool of the enemy.  Turning what is good into a sinful cycle, restraining progress. This doesn’t negate the fact that in order to have a full life of abundance you must do 3 things.  Trust God, Obey Him, and Worship Him. To do these things you have to study His Word, seek His presence, and share the Good News of Jesus. So, YOU ARE ENOUGH!! And that doesn’t mean that if there are areas you are slacking in it absolutely doesn’t mean that God isn’t with you or hearing you. Just…. get out of your way and let go of the steering wheel. 

A Champion’s Attitude 

​A Champion’s attitude is “Whatever it takes.” Champions don’t negotiate victory. They bear any burden & pay the price in the name of victory long before the game started. Don’t wait to be discouraged to decide whether you’re going to continue. Make a decision about it. Decide before the battle begins that you’re going to be still standing at the end of it. You might be bloody, you might be bruised, your body might be sore but you’re not going to stop. 
Champions train mentally to push through the pain. I discovered that the pain of falling short is nothing compared to the shame of stopping short. There’s nothing worse than could’ve been or would’ve been…

I’ve said it many times before. Half the battle is just staying in the game. 
Unfortunately amateurs avoid pain & seek escape. We champions are the warriors of this world. But you have to prepare the ground for what God wants to do in your life. The preparation both mental & physical, make us unstoppable & ferocious in the pursuit of our goals. Remember, If you’re not dead then God’s not done ! 

Part 2: Husband’s vs.Wives

So I wanted to dig a bit deeper into relationships. I SAY THIS OUT OF LOVE! ! As iron sharpens iron.(Proverbs 27:17) I’ve gone through enough stuff in my past 3 relationships spanning just about 15 yrs…. learning and growing each time with Jesus. Watching my parents fall apart and now recognizing traits in both the female and male roles played out first hand around me. First to clarify I AM NOT PERFECT. I will protect and defend my guy to no end and yet I will be argumentative at times,  I do have trouble with full submission, etc. I’m a handful. From Part 1, it is clear that there is an action that causes a reaction. Wife first has respect and submit to the husband before she receives unconditional love. I have encountered woman that have everything wrong totally. Married and not having sex with their husbands. UMMMM  excuse me, I don’t know who you think you are but your body doesn’t belong to you. Married and not catering to their husband.  Not doing his laundry or cooking …. even turning down dates. Do you know what this spoiled brat, selfish, self-centered, bigotry does to your husband? To your marriage? What about never supporting him?  Never helping him?  Never being there for him?  Comparing and complaining? You are punching holes in who he is as a man. Proverbs 25:24 & 21:9 state that it is better to live outside of the house on a corner of a roof than in a house with a nagging wife. OUTSIDE…. ON A ROOF…subject to the weather and lack of comfort than to even see you inside a spacious house and deal with you as a nagging complaining wife. Why would he stay with you ladies? I’m all about being a strong woman,  and standing for something and what I believe in…. and no lie I struggle with OBEDIENCE… Do ALL THINGS as if unto the Lord (Ephesians 6:7, Colos. 3:23) ladies you are specifically instructed to treat your husbands as it is fit unto God. (Colos.3:18) It starts with YOU WIVES. Most girls today are defiant,  demanding,  self serving, self centered,spoiled brats…. including myself. Expecting a husband to do what we say, know what we’re thinking,  give us all his time and never work yet be the provider of the family. I’ve literally  watched a chick (I can’t bring myself to call her a woman or even a lady) be a two timing, fake as can be, ill intentioned, back stabbing wife and never (as far as I know) cheat on her husband and go to church and “pray for answers”. Then when he finally took a stand and said enough, she plays a victim.WHAAAT IS YOUR MALFUNCTION LITTLE GIRL?!? You can’t not touch your husband for years and think he’ll sick around.  You can’t not ask him how his day was or help him with things so that he can give you more family time that you’ve been asking for.  You can’t not clean the flipping house and expect him to rub your back. SERIOUSLY…. ladies… if you don’t think that catering and tending to your husband and putting him BEFORE your kids is an ABSOLUTE  COMMAND from God then leave.  No questions, no problems, no attachment  just pack your crap and leave. Your A terrible example to your kids and to others and the world that knows you of what a good wife and woman is. If this offends you then you don’t know Jesus, period. If you aren’t in total agreement with me then you’re not reading the Word and therefore not in agreement with God. Is a hard pill to swallow and we choke on it almost every time…. pill called TRUTH. We allow pride and arrogance to consume us.  The most selfish thing in the world is play victim. OHHHH MY MAN LEFT ME. … OHHHH HE WAS NO GOOD. … OHHHH HE BROKE HIS PROMISES/VOWS….. my response is STUPID IT’S YOUR FAULT.(this isn’t the case for every relationship, if he beats you,  cheats on you,  talks down to you,  scares you,  belittles you, etc… his fault totally leave and if applicable  have him arrested)  Your husband didn’t marry you for you to try, or to accomplish demasculine him. For you to literally break the bank, the house,and your marriage. Through sickness and health, unless you have a psychological meltdown and need Dr’s to help heal your mental status, no forms of 2 faced actions fall under this.  Talking bad about your husband and never to him is not a form of sickness covered under the vows of marriage.  For richer or poorer, this doesn’t mean if you never work and max out the credit cards.  This doesn’t mean disregard the budget. This doesn’t mean act stupid when he asks you to stick to one. First question is are you working?  Are you helping him to reach financial goals? If all your doing is complaining about it #norespect! For better or worse, if he lost his job and you lost everything (house, car, food,etc) you stick with him and support him. Help him and bring him peace not strife. If you are an added stress you bring every type of evil to him and to your marriage. (James 3:16,Roman 1:29) Ladies, I have my own struggles with this as well.  I knew well enough to recognize it and take it to Jesus, go back and at least try and make it right. Can’t take back something you’ve already put out… can only try to make it right and work on your problems with Jesus for the future. Get ready ladies. … part 3 is coming soon.

Blinding Light that Gives Sight

Isaiah 58:11 – 12 (KJV)

11 And the Lord shall guide thee continually, and satisfy thy soul in drought, and make fat thy bones: and thou shalt be like a watered garden, and like a spring of water, whose waters fail not. 12 And they that shall be of thee shall build the old waste places: thou shalt raise up the foundations of many generations; and thou shalt be called, The repairer of the breach, The restorer of paths to dwell in.

 

I feel this this pull, God reminding me at every corner how my calling is for Him. I love Him so much. I am not sure how you guys feel about christian dubstep / house music but it is pretty awesome. I am HUGE HUGE music person. I have trained to sing and dance since I was 4.  God will use these talents one day soon. (1 Peter 4:10) I find myself falling in love with Jesus over and over again. Remember that we are the BRIDE of Christ. there is a ROMANCE that transpires. (Gen. 28:10-22, Exod. 3:1-17, John 21:15, John1:29, Ephis. 5:27) God is so AMAZING guys.  You can’t tell me there is no water in a pool I’m already swimming in. He continually is lifting me up when I feel abandoned and unsure. With my business and in my life  I have been overlooking the progress and being thankful for what is happening. Feeling like I need to be farther, and do more, and have faster results, etc. The fact that I am so selfish is so disheartening. How can I even be so ungrateful to my God? I love the romance I have with Jesus. Like my husband he ensures and encourages. Like my best friend He defends me, and lifts me up. Like my lover, He wraps around me and tenderly loves unconditionally. Being my God, He commands my life and graciously shows me how much I need Him every second of every day. Have you ever been so absorbed into something others called you obsessed? I have…Be obsessed with Jesus. Out of all the things I have been told I am “obsessed” with my favorite is JESUS. hahaha from fitness, to business….. my truest obsession is God. As I follow His path for my life, I have found so much happiness at the purest submission to God. Standing my ground even when I have oppressors and nay sayers. Jesus is who defines me, guides me and instructs my life. THANK GOD!!! Blinded by the light (Acts 9:1-19) now I can SEE for real!

Back Again

Galatians 6:9 (NIV) 

Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.

I have been pressed to write more on my blog. I can’t lie, I have been distracted and caught up with my business. God is so awesome guys. No joke. i’m doing what is known as a run. A run in my business is when you put your head down and grind it out until you look up and your at the goal. My goal seems distant from me, because I set the bar to be at the top. Like life, everything is a roller coaster. I am going through every emotion every day multiple times a day. I have realized the rate of mindset in others and myself. I have recently been speaking to people around the world initiating conversations that are about business and Jesus just take over and the whole conversation roll into one about HIM!!! God is so good guys. I have neglected to write a blog in along while. God has reminded me multiple times. My daughter asked me when  I would write one again because she follows it. Guys she is 9. I was taken aback, I really am slacking if my 9 year old is asking me when I was going to write again. A hard reminder to never forget that God has called me to also continue to keep this going. I have many testimonials to share from the last month or so. Places in which God shows me just how in doubt and times of struggling faith He will always be there. YES, I struggle in points of faith at times. During these points I blast the worship music and remember WHY I must keep pressing forward. My WHY is because God told me to do something. Guess what guys, because He told me to do it, I have the strongest driven passion for it. God will never ask you to do something that He didn’t create you for. He made you specifically to be who you are, to love what you love, to have specific skills and talents, and thought processes. He made you to use all of these to bring Him greater glory and be the fishers of men. (Matthew 4:19, John 21:4-17) All these things is the very thing that drives you, that pushes you, that brings you the greatest joy and happiness in life, what fulfills you and gives you reason to want to live. Don’t allow the enemy to lie to you, telling you that you are unhappy or miserable. GOD is greater. Greater is He that lives in me than he that lives of the the world. (1 John 4:4) What does this mean? This means that whatever you have going on, whatever circumstance is draining you God is greater. That negative husband, nagging wife, friend telling you that you aren’t going to make it, those waiting to see you fail, those who lie about you, or turn their backs to you. YOU BELONG TO GOD…. THAT MEANS YOU ARE UNSTOPPABLE!!! You can feel the hurt f the circumstance but you don’t break to it. I’ve more than taken my fair share before building this business and helping people change the direction of their life and family trees from poverty to wealth (in more ways than just financial). Now that I’m actually doing it I can’t even talk to my family about it, not because I don’t want to help them but because it’s me they want to not even know about it. So to that I say, Luke 4:24, Mark 6:4, Matthew 13:57. A prophet is not without honor EXCEPT in his own town.

Holy Spirit You are Welcome Here

Ok, guys, I know that I have been touch and go on here. I must admit this journey God has me on is awesomely wild. This past weekend was the international convention for my business and company. If you have never been affiliated with a Jesus founded and Bible based company then you haven’t ever lived. Myself and my team were recognized on stage in front of 30 thousand people. All Honor and glory be to God. There is no way I would have been able to do that or lead my partners to do that if I wasn’t following the Holy Spirit. It’s funny how things work out. God has shown me so much transpiring in the back ground. I’ve been given the stories and testimonies and struggles of leaders that are some of the most influential in network marketing and of the world. I saw others for who they really are at points. God revealed to me somethings that aren’t as wonderful. God is of the details. He plans for His beloved to be set up for life in abundance. Subsequently, that means the blessings overflow unto those around them. Couple scriptures come to mind; Psalms  105:15 and 1 Chronicles 16:22 both speak of not doing harm to the anointed and chosen of God. While Luke 4:24, Mark 6:4, and Matthew 13:57 all inform us that a prophet is not accepted in his/her home town. I realized this in a great magnitude when others whom I never thought in a million years to betray or slander me did so behind my back and then smile and plead innocents to me while being promoted through my business because of me. How often do we remember that God is one of details. I thank God for those people. I need them in my life. Without them my life wouldn’t reflect the Word of God. John 15:18-27 is a key factor. At one point even Jesus mother Mary called Him “unstable” and “unbalanced” to the crowd He was preaching to. Matthew 7:16 shows you that you must look at the fruit that a person bears to know their heart. All that has happened in my life and my business has been a strategic plan by God. As I have grown into my walk and strength in my faith I see this more so now than ever before. By His will I was able to attend an exclusive pool party hosted by the leaders of my business. It was here that you realized that these people are the ones who are highly favored by God. So much so that our ENTIRE organization were brought together by God because of how strong and devout our faith in Him is. Because He knows that we would never deny Him and bring others to Him as well as show them how to gain life in abundance with Him. Father God is so AMAZING. and Jesus continuously leaves me in AWE of Him. As the day proceeded and we had tons of fun and networked with the best of the best in the industry, in the company, and as people of faith, God had another plan in mind. There was an impromptu worship. A beautiful pianist sat at the piano and started to play. As she played 2 girls began to sing, though beautiful voices they were hard to hear over the piano. God is one of the details. Soon enough the ones meant to be there where drawn to the room. Even if they couldn’t hear the music. That is when God used my voice. God has blessed me with what is known as a “power house” voice. When He did, Holy Spirit blanketed the room so heavily and thick that a young girl gave her life to Jesus at that moment. Gentlemen, highly respected and successful,  fell into worship and praise. Tears of joyous worship and humbled praise fell from every eye. It was the single most amazing thing God has ever used me for. I pray He uses me again and again and again for bigger and greater things to glorify Him. Don’t take this testimony as a brag. I tell you because God is that AWESOME. Who am I? I am nothing but sin wrapped in flesh if it wasn’t for Jesus Christ who died on the cross for me. I can’t do anything if it wasn’t for God who wakes me up, puts air in my lungs, and tells my heart to beat. I AM NOTHING literally, with my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I open my heart and myself and my life to be used by Him for His Glory.

Holy Spirit You are welcomed here. (place hand over heart) Come flood this place and fill the atmosphere. Your Holy presence is what our hearts long for. To be overwhelmed by your presence Lord.

A Call to Action

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So I’ve been dedicated to growing the business God instructed me to start. It’s been AWESOME! Also, it’s shown the truth faith and hearts of others. I’ve turned away all walks of life because they couldn’t humble themselves, drowning in self righteousness and pride. To some degree we all fight this. Totally, walking out what Jesus says I will. Other’s lashing out, or putting themselves above others, or speaking about others. I stand proudly to say Jesus is with me. He stands to my right and holds my hand, guiding me, leading me. I say this not as a braggart but to tell you that God wants to be the best friend of everyone. Who am I? I am no one and nothing without Jesus. God lead me to do a business to help others around the world, in many ways including freedom of time, financial freedom, and life in abundance. I’m seeking those around the world ready to prosper in the guidance of Jesus Christ and set a world wide revival. For I lean not on my own understanding but I trust God to guide the ones He chooses to lead others to Him….. that He will bring us together. And we will all grow our business and change lives and give it all back to God. My email is perfectpersonforthejob@gmail.com

YOU ARE WORTH MORE

So as sit in the office, listening to a conversation of chains. It’s really is becoming difficult to not want to jump up and shake ppl. JESUS IS THE WAY! Ohhhh man, guys this is CRITICAL. They talk of their relationships and having controlling issues. Trying to be supportive and caring. Speaking of different backgrounds being the foundation. Prime example of what Jesus says not to do. WIVES must first SUBMIT TO YOUR HUSBANDS. THEN husbands love your wives as Christ loves the church. Understand that you can’t at all not be PROVERBS 31. GOOGLE NOW what that is. What good is it to council yourself? What good is it to write to yourself as a child? That’s RIDICULOUS. This thought of self help. God is all good but things, gives only good things, even if it chastisement of the ones He loved dearly. Understand this guys, seriously, God is the ANSWER to EVERY problem. Nothing you can do can provide what Jesus died for. Which is HAPPINESS, FREEDOM, JOY, PURPOSE, ETC. This has been 6 hrs of craziness. HOLY SPIRIT come and take over this place. Arrest these hearts and bring understanding.

Faith in God means Faith in His timing

How many times have you become impatient with a result? I can tell you that God has been working on my patience for over a decade now. I personally, feel like I’ve only made small progress. When you submit to Jesus, things tend to move faster. How long do you stand in your own way? When God is saying,” If you let Me guide you, blessings in abundance will overflow.” STEP DOWN, and let God in the driver seat. How awesome is it too know that you don’t have to worry about the challenges and responsibilities of controlling things. The weight lifts from you when you accept Him as God of all things in your life. Your just along for the ride.