You Mad Bro?

Ephesians 4:26-31

26 “In your anger do not sin” : Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry,27 and do not give the devil a foothold. 28 Anyone who has been stealing must steal no longer, but must work, doing something useful with their own hands, that they may have something to share with those in need. 29 Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. 30 And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. 31 Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice.

 

The thing about anger, is it is the product of of everything that is prideful and selfish. See it is easy to get caught up in the emotional aspect of life. It’s easy to let it fester and stew and take over your thoughts. I used to be angry. I used to hate and make fun of others. When I came back to Jesus, He pointed many things out. If you cannot see the good in others or accept age, gender, color, etc. You are quickly falling away from the grace and blessing of God. Sometimes, with those close to me, I can see things so clearly. Yet their hearts are often not ready for the discussion or thoughts that have. To be compassionate, understanding, and always focusing on the good instead of dwelling on the bad is not something you can gain on your own.

Put on then, as God’s chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassionate hearts, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience, bearing with one another and, if one has a complaint against another, forgiving each other; as the Lord has forgiven you, so you also must forgive. -Colossians 3:8, 12-13

If every little thing gets under your skin then the person you should be angry at is yourself. Honestly, the person with the problem, both mentally and spiritually, is you!!! The only way to overcome this feeling is to learn how to ask God to take it from you. God has been swift to take my ill feelings away after frivolously asking God to help me love more. Only recognizing that you have an issue with anger is the first step. After all how can you fix what you never recognize is broken?

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THANKFUL PRAISE

I just wanted to tell you guys that Jesus is just so awesome.  God is just amazing.  I’m reflecting on my last few weeks. And God’s absolute stance in my life is so defined.  I am just so unbelievably thankful.  See the thing about faith is….. it doesn’t work unless you believe and prove your belief through the tests and valleys. 

James 1:3 (NIV) –

because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance

This is so true in every aspect of life.  We have to and must work for things.  Let me give you an example; You lose your job. You pray God blesses you with another one.  And your neighbor owns a business, he’s hiring but you don’t know that bc you’re too busy crying and praying about the situation that you’re in. Do you get the job? I mean to earthly and seemingly natural mind being upbeat and positive during the valleys is the craziest notion. Let me tell you something,  if you do not praise Jesus and thank Him for what you do have during these times you will stay in that situation. If you do not get up and put in effort to gain the next blessing He had for you….. you will stay in that situation. If you lose faith or don’t actually believe that God will turn your tragedy into a triumph….. you will stay in that situation. (Romans 5:3, Hebrews 10:36, James 1:2-3) Jesus has just abundantly poured out tremendous blessings even when other aspects of life were getting rough. I do not have the words to express the gratitude I have been overwhelmed with on multiple occasions towards God and all He does, continues to do,  and will do for me and my family and all those around me.  THANK YOU JESUS!!! AMEN 

God is Reaching Out

I am going to share with you something that I have felt God calling me to do but it has not be the right timing. Today was a big day. I broke. First time in a very long time I broke into such a rage that the body tremors lasted almost half a day.  God made me very different than my family. Like most of the population I came from what would be considered a “broken home”. Divorced parents and of course each of them having their crazy to deal with. We all have our faults, I found no reason to speak about them. As I get older and the more I know and understand God the more I see. The more you see the more you understand. The more you understand your tolerance level for BS you take. my first conversation with God was at the age of 4. I would sneak off into the second living room we had and just talk with Him for hours. Once taking the pennies I had and holding them up to ceiling telling Him to take it. Not realizing that what I was doing was Biblical. I was more open to Him at the age of 4 than anyone else in my family combined.  Over the years I have strayed and come back to Jesus as different milestones happened. My parents divorce made me the most committed to the church I was attending until I started dating my ex husband whom had literally forced me to choose between him and God at one point. I fell away from God for many years to find my life empty and meaningless. A brand new baby and move to Texas and I came running back to God with tenacity and famished hunger. I divorced my ex husband and slipped up here and there but you can never un-know things. By this point, I could never not hear God I could only choose whether to obey Him or not. So 1 surprise pregnancy at the same time of a bad break up and I choose to become extremely devoted to Him once again. A series of divine events took place. I randomly met Shane, I had a string of jobs each better than the last, my first and worst car accident where I was at fault quickly followed by a second. My newest  chiropractor hired me on the spot as he was adjusting me from my accident. Shane taught me so much but he was battling his own demons and God brought him home sooner rather than later. Soon after I met my now fiance who was a patient in the Dr. office I was managing. At first he was my business partner and closest mentor, then it developed into us being inseparable. There hasn’t been a day since we started this adventure where we haven’t been together. The more you seek Him and understand Him the faster He moves in your life. This is so crazy, My original content of this post was entirely something else, this must be for someone reading this. I was going to explain what happened today to cause me to break but God wanted something else to come out. When you understand that you as a human can never ever be good enough to deserve God to be good to you, and you accept Him for the almighty God He is, then will you see just how quickly He moves on your behalf. Even if it seems bad at the time. (Romans 8:28) I want to know God so intimately, because of that He moved me to where I wanted to be and He needed me to be within a year. I recently have been adjusting to the few businesses we now have and the blending of the families while dealing with the negativity of the outside world. By His grace and mercy with me I am still standing and alive. Today I was deeply seeded with feelings and thought that what I feel now and what I am dealing with is to prep me for the task He has assigned me for my future. Moses had to live in the wilderness of the desert and learn how to survive first before he could lead a population through it. (Exodus 2:1-15) The faster you understand there is absolutely nothing you can do to be good enough or to “make” God do the thing you are praying for, the faster you’ll see Him taking you from where you are to where you never thought you’d be. Trust Him fully to not worry or have fear. This is piggy backing off what I was saying yesterday. Obey Him when you hear Him or discern His will. I lost many years of my life that I wish I could take back and give to Him. This life is so much better. I mean a thrill and joy and excitement beyond any amount of partying a person can have. Never feeling alone or unloved, even when you have been pushed to breaking point and sitting in your walk in closet bursting into a hard cry because you know the gravity of what you just had to do to fight for your family and their equality. Or that one time you where fully aware that you where overdosed and had to pray to God your heart didn’t explode. Guys I’m telling you I have pretty much been through it all. Not once did God ever leave me, He was merciful enough to not let me die that way. For sure would have not been in Heaven. He loved me enough to pick me up and clean me off and give me value and meaning and most of all PURPOSE. I am going to do something I have never done before. I am going to give all of you my email address. I encourage you guys to ask me questions about Jesus, just have conversations, if you just need to talk, to ask for prayers, etc. My email is PerfectPersonForTheJob@gmail.com I look forward to connecting with you guys!!!

When Sleep Eludes You

God is an awesome God, He reigns over Heaven and earth with wisdom, power, and love. Our God is am awesome God!!

I lay here tired but can’t sleep.  This my nightly fight. Waiting for sleep to befriend me.  As I lay in the dark, my eyes sting with exhaustion, I pray with an overwhelmed heart, brimming with humbled thanks to Jesus. I am so thankful for my life, my children, my man, and for the many many blessings of God. Every night I feel just how small I am on this earth yet just how much God’s love abounds in my life.  I daily fight my flesh.  The last few weeks I’ve been fighting off infection and have been quite sluggish and lazy.  It was yesterday that I realized that this was a sneaky attack of the enemy slowing the progress of my business and shadowing my leadership. Yet every night, I lay awake in my mind as my physical body is beyond tired thinking about the wondrous and glorious blessings and gifts God has given me. The thing I learned the most from Shane’s death was that time is the most valued commodity we have.  God is so good that He allows me to breath, for my heart to beat, and gives me sound mind.  My children are safe, alive, and well. My Husband to be its absolutely amazing. God has blessed me with things I sought after and more.  I recognize that I am with His favor to even live in this Era or even with this freedom to own a business that is centered around Him. Helping as many ppl as I can save and make money from home. God is in every fiber of my life the good and bad. Yet, nothing is truly bad for a child of God. God took what was tragic and flipped it into something even greater than I ever thought possible. When I think back over my lifetime I can clearly see Him guiding and leading the steps of life even in the valley’s.  

DISTRACTION 

There’s do much always going on. Pretty crazy stuff. This morning I was so locked into Creflo Dollar it was just amazing.  And refreshing to have a Word from God be so accurate.  You know, even in my faults God’s love abounds. Seriously, it was swift and exact to a thought I was having no more than an hour before I watched his sermon.  Not even just that, things I was thinking over the past few weeks.  I found myself caught in this cycle of trying to “work” my way into blessings. I’m not praying enough, I’m not studying enough, I’m not taking about Him enough, etc. Therefore, I’m not seeing the results a really want.  Hey guys, I’m there but not all the way there.  I get suckered into the easy lies of the enemy. Distraction is the biggest tool of the enemy.  Turning what is good into a sinful cycle, restraining progress. This doesn’t negate the fact that in order to have a full life of abundance you must do 3 things.  Trust God, Obey Him, and Worship Him. To do these things you have to study His Word, seek His presence, and share the Good News of Jesus. So, YOU ARE ENOUGH!! And that doesn’t mean that if there are areas you are slacking in it absolutely doesn’t mean that God isn’t with you or hearing you. Just…. get out of your way and let go of the steering wheel. 

When is Enough … Enough?!?!?!

Separation anxiety…… we all have some form of this. Parent’s to their children, memorabilia, collections, etc. At what point is it too much? I personally have direct conflict with “collecting” or “holding onto” stuff. I do not have any qualms with giving away things or throwing things away. For example, there is no need for 35 pairs of underwear and 70 under shirts. Another example; with my kids I keep 2, tops 3, things per school year. I still have strong dislike to holding things more than 3 or 4 years. At some point when does this become hording? I grew up with when a new thing comes in an old thing goes out. Yet, my mom has a legit fear of never having enough food, so in her pantry was multiples of particular items. So much so that canned and boxed things would be expired for years before one of us kids could get it in the trash. Yet getting rid of things is traumatic and usually ends up in a fight. I just hate clutter and seeing things unused just taking up space… which brings me back to clutter. Can be the most frustrating thing….. to be taking things out while someone brings things in.  i am trying to find a balance with this move. And I find myself keep coming back to the questions, is it me? Can I change? Too fast too soon? Am I being accommodating to everyone’s feelings? Merging families, with semi opposites is proving to be challenging. That is also what makes it exciting.

I am NOT Perfect

I get super frustrated with many things. I am going to keep it real with you guys. An unorganized house is one of them. I mean rip my hair out, bite someone’s heads off, screaming meltdown inside of me happens. That is what happens inside of me when I see junk mail on the counters (aka trash) or dishes in the sink. I literally rage inside when others just walk by messes or half finish projects.  I keep my cool and just get to work. I cannot rest even if I am laying down if I know that I haven’t completed a task even if my body and mind are so tired I choose to finish it the next day, I have a restless sleepless night. I was raised on the grounds see something needed to get done …. just do it. I am working on ingraining this into my children as I raise them. It has been the most beneficial in every aspect of my life. Most of all in business. My youngest is 2, and he is much like me in many ways. He needs to be matching all the time. He gets super frustrated when things aren’t up to standard for him. He compartmentalizes things….. everything has a place. Sometimes, things aren’t right unless I do them. he is the same way about a few things now. I do love his way of things though. He will do very well in business, law, or medicine if he chooses. My oldest is 10 and she is the exact opposite. She is learning quickly through chores that she cannot just be a hot mess. I do love her extremely girly ways and how she is open and will speak her mind. Now, take our very tough personalities and  quickly merge them with semi opposite personalities. Pray with me for balance and peace.  Don’t get things twisted. I love my life. I love my guy and our 5 kids (I have 2 he has 3). I love my business and helping others, but until the move is complete and everything is in it’s place I will still battle my inner flip outs.

Reality Is….

Few topics come to mind to me mostly very late night or early morning. Not this one, I actually read someones post about reality. The host of the post stated he was going to keep it real, he doesn’t travel every other week or take vacations. He didn’t buy anything that he really wanted but only needed. I thought how many people never actually LIVE life. The fact that most are groomed to live as a slave to their jobs or business from childhood is sickening. My 10 year old daughter is literally pulling 9 to 5 in the 4th grade. THAT IS RIDICULOUS!!!! Needless to say things are changing in my household. What’s the reality? If you aren’t making money while you sleep, you aren’t living…… your working to live. I was taught how to do 1 time work for LIFETIME payment. I now love teaching others how to do this. Even on the smallest scales, what would an extra $100 a month automatically hitting your bank account do for you? What if you had $1,500 a month before getting out of bed? My greatest delight now-a-days is showing others how to do this while helping people. Best of all, working hours are at my leisure. I have never had so much fun, making so much money, helping others along the way!

A Thought Given

I wanted to tell you guys about something that God gave me the other day. First, when you have a thought that isn’t of your own accord that is God speaking. Allow me to begin with that, because my thought process at that time was far from what God had given me. Honestly, I was frustrated and mad at something to do with the kids when BOOM there was a “random” thought. I always know when it’s God because it will pertain to something I had thought previously , sometimes by many years, or had never spoken about before. When I get upset I tend to clean. There I was, going over the whatever had just happened with one of the kids over and over in my mind. A bit angrily scrubbing the counters in the kitchen, when God placed this thought in my mind;

 

We have already been given the POWER and AUTHORITY to preform signs and wonders  (Luke 10:19, Matthew 28:18)

 

This was a statement to something I knock around in my mind often for many many many years. usually the question “When” and “How” are the predominant questions I think about doing what Jesus did. I also used to think maybe we aren’t close enough to God. How close to God would one have to be to preform like Jesus did here on the earth? Was there anyone “good” enough to be worthy to raise the dead? Heal the sick? ETC. …. These are the thoughts that rolled around in my mind for close to ten years now. I always thought I will be one God uses in such ways one day. When I know the Word better or by heart? When I never forget to pray? When I stop life from distracting me? This brings me to mindset. Like have the keys to the car of your dreams in your hand but you feel like you don’t deserve to drive it. Or you keep it right where it is so that you don’t risk crashing it. Or you think the keys go to an entirely different car all together. We have been given in our hands the POWER and AUTHORITY to not know every scripture of the Bible and still walk up to a paraplegic and in the name of JESUS tell them to get up and walk!!! Understanding this and KNOWING without DOUBT that you have every right and authority to command the lame to walk is the key. Matthew 21:21 Jesus says it plain as day. If you tell a mountain to move from here to there with NO doubt it will move. 1 Corinth 13:2 also speaks of faith without doubt. I’ll go a bit more in depth about this scripture later, but for now. I say don’t be afraid to step out undoubtedly in faith and allow God to do the miraculous through you!!! To be like Jesus, you must DO as Jesus DID while He was on this earth!