My family and I have been really digging into the ministries of Creflo and Taffi Dollar. Today, as we were watching via online streaming connected to our big screen tv. I was reminded of something that Shane instilled in me in so many ways.  Fearlessness!!! Pastor Dollar has been working on a series of spiritual blindness. Now as I can say much on the topic and relay all I understand and know about it, I will keep it simple. Fear is the only foothold the enemy has so he can enter your life. Fear is what holds you and binds you to your sickness, poverty, anger, depression, etc.  In the words of Pastor Creflo Dollar,” Fear brings hopelessness,  fear will contaminate your faith.” See the biggest take away I have ever gained from anyone who has ever ministered or fed me was the absolute fearlessness Shane instilled. Knowledge is the key. Ignorance to the Word of God means you will acquire a very large debt to the enemy. I like to use the speeding example. If you are pulled over for speeding and you tell the cop you never saw the sign does that stop the officer from giving you a ticket? The answer to that is no, you still get a ticket and you learn the lesson. (Hosea 4:6, Matthew 22:29) We parish because we do not gain understanding and knowledge of God’s Word. One thing I admire still to this day is Shane’s absolute fearlessness when it comes to the promises of God. I can say that when it comes to finding jobs or relationships I am pretty fearless. The trust I have in God far out ways the fear of being penniless or with no relationship, etc. GOD IS GREATER than ALL THINGS!!


Missing the Mark

Ok so missing the mark, what exactly does that mean? There is something I say frequently,” Off by a millimeter off by a mile!” I’ve written in depth the meaning of this. To wrap it up in a nutshell it’s a golfing term. If you hit the ball even the slightest but on the right or left the trajectory of the ball will be off by miles even from the destination of the hole. It’s all about angles and positioning. one of my favorite examples of this was a sermon I heard about fear. This highly elaborate and excited pastor was identifying fear. Well first what is fear? Fear is the OPPOSITE of Faith. (Pslam 56:3 ,23:4,27:1, 118:6, Ephesians 2:8-9, 2 Tim 1:7, Romans 10:27, 1 Corinth 10:13, Philip 4:6-7) All of these go into details about fear and Faith. To hit a mark we first must know what the mark is. As a Christian the “mark” is always Jesus and the Kingdom of God. Therefore, we must have correct doctrine. As this pastor proceeded with his energized sermon few things were pointed out by the Holy Spirit.

  1. he only acknowledge worldly fears
  2. he never touched scriptures about not having fear
  3. avoided the response when asking the congregation what they fear “stepping out of the will of God”
  4. didn’t once lead the congregation to the Jesus and why He died on the cross.

(Matthew 11:27, 28:18, Ephes 1:21, Coloss 2:10, John 17:2  go into depth about the authority given to us. )

This very energetic pastor was literally running around the church yelling with excitement holding the mic to random people in the audience asking their fears. Basic things came up; heights, bugs, reptiles, etc. I at this point had a very solid fearless mentor and my only response was fear God. Fear what not following Him will do to you. This was ignored. Yet the girl next to me stated spiders. this girl was his disciple for over 10 years. She followed his every word and command. He addressed her comment on the spot stating,” Not if your with me your not!” WAIT!!! She has been under your wing for 10 years and you didn’t know this fear of spiders of hers? She isn’t cured yet from it?

At this point the Holy Spirit had me squirming in my seat. I was uncomfortable. God will let you know when something isn’t right even if it sounds holy and imitates God’s Word. We aren’t supposed to FEAR. I mean we are human and we will have fear but it is to be fleeting. You cannot trust in God and be afraid of anything other than Him at the same time!!! See how easily we as Christians can be swayed away from Jesus? Can be a heartbeat and we forgot who God is. (Psalm 118:6) WHO shall I fear, if God is with me? I should fear no person!! I was reminded about how we as people are afraid of those in authority or of what people might say or think. If anything said or done is out for the will of God or His Word you must stand up, speak up, or disagree. To the response of the fear of bugs. internally I was stricken almost with disgust, SERIOUSLY?  God SHUT THE MOUTHS of LIONS for Daniel. There is NO animal or insect God didn’t create. He has control and command of them all. So do you! I’m not saying deliberately place yourself in harms way. If you aren’t acting in the name and of the will of Jesus you simple are placing yourself in a compromising position. Yet still God will always have your best interest.  How could someone be afraid of a thing yet not expect God to be with you. God is always bigger than your fears!!

Ok, well lets take this to another level. If you saw a demon would you run? I mean now a days satan has become harder to identify. People aren’t climbing walls and spinning heads most of the time. They just lie, steal, kill, cheat, etc. In the event you physically saw the appearance of a demon how would you be? No lie I would have to quickly get over my fear, because that is the first point of control of satan. To make you afraid so you lose Faith in God.  I haven’t encountered this situation yet either. Now we are talking about the POWER of God. A foundation scripture for me is Luke 10:19 – Behold, I give unto you POWER to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over ALL the power of the enemy: AND NOTHING shall by ANY MEANS hurt you. Jesus Himself gives us this authority to bend satan to the Will of God. The only fear you can ever truly justify is the fear of God.

As the sermon was wrapped up, he has someone that had a fear of heights climb a ladder. I’m not sure what this proved or showed. This was the last sermon I ever sat through by this pastor. He missed the mark entirely!!! By missing the mark it proved his intent, the intention wasn’t to lead others to Jesus but to showboat himself as a pastoral leader.

JESUS, His Blood and WHY He died on the cross is the mark. Every stripe of on the back of Jesus is for everything that puts us in fear. One for Sickness, one for loneliness, one for depression, one for anxiety, etc. Ultimately, He dies on the cross, and we are never again to fear death. All of these things are taken care of and payed for by the Blood of Christ. He was the Perfect Sacrifice. By His Blood we are given the Holy Spirit. Jesus took fear and nailed it to the cross saying to us NO MORE!!! IT IS FINISHED!! We were given the authority OVER ALL THINGS.

Correct or incorrect doctrine? Besides being completely incorrect in his message he was totally missing the mark. Point all things to Jesus and the Cross.  This brings me back to this….. off by a millimeter off by a mile. Somewhere in the beginning of his walk with Christ something was just a little bit off. Now, years later, he was way off by miles. This is why we are to ask, seek and knock for WISDOM and DISCERNMENT. You need to study the Word of God to be approved. Knowing the Word and knowing WHO GOD IS. Through that is how the Holy Spirit can let you know the TRUTH. Really take note when you allow the spirit of fear to feed you. Overcome it with Faith that no matter what the fear is God trumps it all.


Part 1: Wives vs. Husbands

Ephesians 5:21-25 (KJV)

21 Submitting yourselves one to another in the fear of God.22 Wives, submit yourselves unto your own husbands, as unto the Lord.23 For the husband is the head of the wife, even as Christ is the head of the church: and he is the saviour of the body.24 Therefore as the church is subject unto Christ, so let the wives be to their own husbands in every thing.25 Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself for it;

So something I have really honed in on is something I didn’t fully notice before I met Shane. I am a woman, a mother, at one point a wife. Everything I say in this is out of love, though surely there will be some that have ill feelings towards it. In the scripture above it speaks of the roles of a husband an wife. Now, if you truly know Jesus and love God you know that He is PERFECT and EXACT and God of ORDER. So exactly as it is written. In marriage you are instructed  to SUBMIT to EACH OTHER  in fear of God. Meaning, that it is a requirement to regard your spouse before yourself. Then in EXACT ORDER…… WIVES SUBMIT yourselves unto your husbands, as unto the Lord. WHHHAAAATTT?!?!?!?! What does it mean to be submitted to God? What does it mean to submit? FULL and TOTAL SURRENDER of ones well being, body, possessions, and ENTIRE life. That’s ridiculous you ladies might say….. totally allow a man to dictate my life? Are you crazy?…. HAHAHAHA God answers that in EXACT ORDER. For the Husband is the HEAD of the wife. EXACT ORDER of LIFE…. GOD, HUSBAND, WIFE, KIDS, House. Ladies, this means that in direct reflection to your marriage and house hold lands not on your husbands shoulders…. but YOURS. He is to lead you are to follow. Have you ever tried moving your body in a particular direction but not your head? Your body cannot walk away from the direction the head is going. Have you tried to keep your body upright yet tilt your head way back? Your body follows the direction of the head no matter if you wanted it to or not. In EXACT ORDER the scripture continues… even as Christ is the head of the church: and He is the Saviour of the body. THEREFORE as the church is SUBJECT UNTO Christ, so let the wives be to their own husbands IN EVERYTHING. WHAT??? Did GOD just say that?!?!?! YES!!! What women don’t get, is that this is the FIRST things that MUST be done BEFORE the husband gives love to the wife. And YES I just went there. God designed it this way end of story. In EXACT ORDER, husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave Himself for it. This is where the husband cherishes, adores, protects, provides, and laces his wife fulfilling her in every way. See your husband operates on respect, while the wife operates on love. Ask any man if he rather have love or respect more…. Respect is the number 1 answer. He has the weight of God on him. designed by God, your husband is to lead the wife and children to Jesus. He is to the decision maker, the provider, the protector, and the LEADER. Everything that transpires from his house he is responsible for and that INCLUDES the wife. Don’t get it twisted ladies this doesn’t mean you control things from the background or that you can act any type of way.  This means he leads you follow. Don’t jump the gun gentleman this doesn’t give you authority to do as you please either. ABSOLUTE PARTNERSHIP in a marriage. Give and take. YET, as the wife your feelings and thoughts have value and merit…. wait for it…. THE ULTIMATE DECISION IS FROM THE HUSBAND!!! (DANG I Just said that) YES!!! That is why God reprimands the the husband as well as the wife when the wife jacks up. Guy’s you may be saying THAT’S NOT FAIR. Hey, your the leader and the head ….. we follow you. (to be continued)

Can You Hear Me??



So this hits the point to a “T”, how often do we as Christians ask God to speak to us? I can tell you that I have been here. I still get to this point at times. When I don’t want to put in the work to listen, and seek God to “just tell me”. Our lives become so busy. We get caught up in the aspect of living we forget to make time for God. B.I.B.L.E. BASIC INSTRUCTIONS BEFORE LEAVING EARTH. How many of you understand this? I was a “know it all” before meeting Shane. He had his work cut out with me. It took months of fighting and tears and praying before I finally asked God to open my eyes. And literally, right there on the spot at 10 p.m. at night sitting in my car, God shed the scales from eyes. When understanding hit me I wept. The Truth of correct doctrine is absolute. I had remorse for the hard time I gave Shane and subsequently  Jesus Himself. Obedience is better than sacrifice.


1 Samuel 15:22 (KJV)

22 And Samuel said, Hath the Lord as great delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices, as in obeying the voice of the Lord? Behold, to obey is better than sacrifice, and to hearken than the fat of rams.


Depth and understanding comes when you read the Word of God. Ask for it! Anything you ask in the name of Jesus to Father God shall be done if you believe and do not doubt! God has been moving rapidly in this season of my life. Things that He seeded in me almost 10 years ago, now has a horizon. His will in my life is doing a hostile takeover!! As nervous as it makes me, I walk by faith. We all want to see the outcome! We all want to know the future. The truth is this……. we aren’t meant to know. THAT is the POINT of faith. Faith in God means faith in His timing.

God’s Not Dead 2 Devotional Day 1


Psalm 50:1-3 King James Version (KJV)

50 The mighty God, even the Lord, hath spoken, and called the earth from the rising of the sun unto the going down thereof.Out of Zion, the perfection of beauty, God hath shined.Our God shall come, and shall not keep silence: a fire shall devour before him, and it shall be very tempestuous round about him.

So the journal entry this day was to write about what the most difficult challenges are going on right now in your life.

  1. Shane passing
  2. needing to move
  3. What now in life
  4. Financial prosperity
  5. Finding alone time to be with God and in His Word

What are some of your greatest blessings?

  1. My kids
  2. having a decent job
  3. The teachings of Shane
  4. The people God placed in my life
  5. Gaining understanding and wisdom

Then I was to pray asking for peace and thankful for my blessings. I am a FIRM believer in physically WRITING things down (again another Shane teaching). I have written everything daily including prayers.

Dear Heavenly Father I come to You in the Holy and Righteous name of Jesus Christ. I ask God, that You show me how my blessings from You can bring hope and light and life back into my life. Please, Father, bring me Grace to face the world at Your side. Father, I ask You to draw close to me as I draw closer to You Lord. I ask in Your son’s name Jesus, that You give me understanding, wisdom,discernment, and knowledge of Your POWER. Like You did with Shane. God, You called him friend, like You did Moses, and used his life to show Your Glory, Mercy, Love, and Righteousness. I seek this same relationship with You Jesus. I seek this same closeness with You God. Thank You Lord for Your many and great blessings in my life. I pray these things in the name of Jesus. AMEN!

Fruit of the Spirit

Can’t say things are bad for God is with me. It took Shane passing for things that he taught me to really hit home. Correct doctrine is the biggest key (Titus 1:9, 2 Tim 2:15, John 6:51) but also understanding.(James 1:5, Proverbs 2:6) God has given me the peace and joy by Holy Spirit (Gal 5:22-23) to handle this time in my life. I am reminded once again how God never fails ( Psalm 136, Duet 31:6), even though I fail Him. Hence why we are to pickup our cross DAILY (Luke 9:23) and to ad onto that ALL DAY. You can drop it at points. ALSO we MUST put on the Armor of God DAILY (Eph 6:10-18). I like to visualize what that would be physically. Think about the protection and the weight of armor, that you also are carrying a shield (Faith) and a sword (the Word of God). Not even just that but we also must pick up our cross. So the weight of that. Shane was a bone-a-fied tested and true Profit of God. Some are mocking him on my Facebook. UUGGG how I distaste Facebook. There is a man named David Hogan have you ever heard of him? He was the only other person on earth the Shane related to and mentored from because they had similar anointing. Shane always said David was his earthly mentor. God Himself was Shane’s mentor stepping out of Heaven for 7 days and spending time with Shane. I want to know God like this. I want to please God so much that He would step from Heaven and be with me. Like Moses….. like Shane. I seek understanding and wisdom and discernment by the Holy Spirit. I seek the POWER of God (Matt 22:29), for Him to use my life for His glory. First I had to be broken to a point of nothing I could do. I lost my Baby, but what he taught me and showed me and spoke to me is ever with me. It’s because of God we met, and because of Shane I am now walking in the Truth. All glory be to Jesus!! All praise and worship to God in the Highest!!!. You are in the will of God when your life reflects the Word of God.(I’ll get into Shane teachings later) We are to DO ALL things Jesus did when He walked this earth AND MORE!!! (John 14:12) Shane loved Jesus so much, he always told me that if we are to be together I must first love Jesus MORE than him. The reality of that didn’t really take root until God took Shane home. I always loved Jesus with all I had and sought Him with hunger most of my life. Correct doctrine and the TRUTH of the Word of God is what Shane taught me as a sought God more and more in my life. But I never was angry with God or upset at Him when He took my beloved Shane. I only Sought to know Him better and closer like my Shane knew Him. I understand why he was the way he was, why he told me what he told me. I understood his love for Christ Jesus and God the Father. God loves him and us EVEN MORE than we could ever love Him. We can’t comprehend God in all His infinite ways and thoughts. (Isaiah 55:8-9) God was, is, and will be forever. He is God he LIVES in the past, He LIVES now in the present, and He LIVES in the future. (Eccles 3:15) Something we can’t wrap our simple minds around is that He is CURRENTLY in the past AND the present AND the future. Nothing we do is a shock or surprise. Because He already been there and is there. Trust in Lord Jesus. Have faith to LITERALLY make mountains move. Psalm 118 keeps coming to mind. If God is with you then who can come against you? (Romans 8:31) In everything we do delight in the Lord.(Psalm 37:4) God is so involved with you that he knows the number of hairs on your head (Luke 12:7, Matt 10:30) and has a count of every tear that fell from your eyes (Psalm 56:8). THAT is how IMPORTANT we are to Him. Can we say that we are even striving to be that close to God and know Him like he does us? Remember God doesn’t have to. He is the Almighty Creator. The Author and Finisher. I AM. He could have easily just wiped us out and started over again, BUT He decided to instead send His Son, His ONLY Son, to DIE for OUR SINS.(John 3:16) I believe and love Jesus so much that I KNOW that I can do all things through Him. I won’t leave this earth until God is done with me here. (1 Samuel 14:8-14, Matthew 19:26, Luke 1:37, Proverbs 3:6, Jeremiah 32:27)