Separation anxiety…… we all have some form of this. Parent’s to their children, memorabilia, collections, etc. At what point is it too much? I personally have direct conflict with “collecting” or “holding onto” stuff. I do not have any qualms with giving away things or throwing things away. For example, there is no need for 35 pairs of underwear and 70 under shirts. Another example; with my kids I keep 2, tops 3, things per school year. I still have strong dislike to holding things more than 3 or 4 years. At some point when does this become hording? I grew up with when a new thing comes in an old thing goes out. Yet, my mom has a legit fear of never having enough food, so in her pantry was multiples of particular items. So much so that canned and boxed things would be expired for years before one of us kids could get it in the trash. Yet getting rid of things is traumatic and usually ends up in a fight. I just hate clutter and seeing things unused just taking up space… which brings me back to clutter. Can be the most frustrating thing….. to be taking things out while someone brings things in. i am trying to find a balance with this move. And I find myself keep coming back to the questions, is it me? Can I change? Too fast too soon? Am I being accommodating to everyone’s feelings? Merging families, with semi opposites is proving to be challenging. That is also what makes it exciting.
I get super frustrated with many things. I am going to keep it real with you guys. An unorganized house is one of them. I mean rip my hair out, bite someone’s heads off, screaming meltdown inside of me happens. That is what happens inside of me when I see junk mail on the counters (aka trash) or dishes in the sink. I literally rage inside when others just walk by messes or half finish projects. I keep my cool and just get to work. I cannot rest even if I am laying down if I know that I haven’t completed a task even if my body and mind are so tired I choose to finish it the next day, I have a restless sleepless night. I was raised on the grounds see something needed to get done …. just do it. I am working on ingraining this into my children as I raise them. It has been the most beneficial in every aspect of my life. Most of all in business. My youngest is 2, and he is much like me in many ways. He needs to be matching all the time. He gets super frustrated when things aren’t up to standard for him. He compartmentalizes things….. everything has a place. Sometimes, things aren’t right unless I do them. he is the same way about a few things now. I do love his way of things though. He will do very well in business, law, or medicine if he chooses. My oldest is 10 and she is the exact opposite. She is learning quickly through chores that she cannot just be a hot mess. I do love her extremely girly ways and how she is open and will speak her mind. Now, take our very tough personalities and quickly merge them with semi opposite personalities. Pray with me for balance and peace. Don’t get things twisted. I love my life. I love my guy and our 5 kids (I have 2 he has 3). I love my business and helping others, but until the move is complete and everything is in it’s place I will still battle my inner flip outs.
Few topics come to mind to me mostly very late night or early morning. Not this one, I actually read someones post about reality. The host of the post stated he was going to keep it real, he doesn’t travel every other week or take vacations. He didn’t buy anything that he really wanted but only needed. I thought how many people never actually LIVE life. The fact that most are groomed to live as a slave to their jobs or business from childhood is sickening. My 10 year old daughter is literally pulling 9 to 5 in the 4th grade. THAT IS RIDICULOUS!!!! Needless to say things are changing in my household. What’s the reality? If you aren’t making money while you sleep, you aren’t living…… your working to live. I was taught how to do 1 time work for LIFETIME payment. I now love teaching others how to do this. Even on the smallest scales, what would an extra $100 a month automatically hitting your bank account do for you? What if you had $1,500 a month before getting out of bed? My greatest delight now-a-days is showing others how to do this while helping people. Best of all, working hours are at my leisure. I have never had so much fun, making so much money, helping others along the way!
I wanted to tell you guys about something that God gave me the other day. First, when you have a thought that isn’t of your own accord that is God speaking. Allow me to begin with that, because my thought process at that time was far from what God had given me. Honestly, I was frustrated and mad at something to do with the kids when BOOM there was a “random” thought. I always know when it’s God because it will pertain to something I had thought previously , sometimes by many years, or had never spoken about before. When I get upset I tend to clean. There I was, going over the whatever had just happened with one of the kids over and over in my mind. A bit angrily scrubbing the counters in the kitchen, when God placed this thought in my mind;
We have already been given the POWER and AUTHORITY to preform signs and wonders (Luke 10:19, Matthew 28:18)
This was a statement to something I knock around in my mind often for many many many years. usually the question “When” and “How” are the predominant questions I think about doing what Jesus did. I also used to think maybe we aren’t close enough to God. How close to God would one have to be to preform like Jesus did here on the earth? Was there anyone “good” enough to be worthy to raise the dead? Heal the sick? ETC. …. These are the thoughts that rolled around in my mind for close to ten years now. I always thought I will be one God uses in such ways one day. When I know the Word better or by heart? When I never forget to pray? When I stop life from distracting me? This brings me to mindset. Like have the keys to the car of your dreams in your hand but you feel like you don’t deserve to drive it. Or you keep it right where it is so that you don’t risk crashing it. Or you think the keys go to an entirely different car all together. We have been given in our hands the POWER and AUTHORITY to not know every scripture of the Bible and still walk up to a paraplegic and in the name of JESUS tell them to get up and walk!!! Understanding this and KNOWING without DOUBT that you have every right and authority to command the lame to walk is the key. Matthew 21:21 Jesus says it plain as day. If you tell a mountain to move from here to there with NO doubt it will move. 1 Corinth 13:2 also speaks of faith without doubt. I’ll go a bit more in depth about this scripture later, but for now. I say don’t be afraid to step out undoubtedly in faith and allow God to do the miraculous through you!!! To be like Jesus, you must DO as Jesus DID while He was on this earth!
Helloooooo you guys!!! I must say if I was looking at you I would most definitely say “you’re a sight for sore eyes” !!! I have been thinking about posting again multiple times a day for a long while now. Things have been so busy and many major changes have been made. I am truly finding out what I am made of. In all my busy fluster I have limited my time spent with God. I feel it drastically in my life. Like going through withdraws. I am taking things to the next level with my guy. Blending of families isn’t easy. My drive to succeed with my business has tapered over the month of Dec. but I am proud to say I am kicking up into gear again. I am reminded of Proverb 3 : 1 -12
My son, forget not my law; but let thine heart keep my commandments: 2 For length of days, and long life, and peace, shall they add to thee. 3 Let not mercy and truth forsake thee: bind them about thy neck; write them upon the table of thine heart: 4 So shalt thou find favour and good understanding in the sight of God and man. 5 Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. 6 In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. 7 Be not wise in thine own eyes: fear the LORD, and depart from evil. 8It shall be health to thy navel, and marrow to thy bones. 9 Honour the LORD with thy substance, and with the first fruits of all thine increase: 10 So shall thy barns be filled with plenty, and thy presses shall burst out with new wine. 11 My son, despise not the chastening of the LORD; neither be weary of his correction: 12 For whom the LORD loveth he correcteth; even as a father the son in whom he delighteth.
I trust the guidance of God. Though, I have acted upon my own accord in some accounts. Being impatient for things God had not told me no on but simply to wait. Obedience is better than sacrifice. (1 Samuel 15:22) I have been given many topics to touch base on. I have written none of them down. I pray I remember them all as I continue to share my journey with you. There is something that changes not just in you but it’s the way of God when you physically put pen to paper. Make sure you take note to the thoughts and conversations God has for you.